Weeeeening ?

[Morticia0328]

Finally I have joined blue light after months upon months of reading. Not sure why I didn't do it sooner.. I'm 35 lost my brother a year ago and a piece (a huge piece might I add) of me died with him. I slipped into using oxy as my crutch. over the past 4-5 months I have weened from 60 to 30 mg. managing to staying at 30mg a day. For some reason I just can't get past this 30 mg!!! I'm frustrated and I just want this out of my life. I've recently looked up kratom?? Anyone have any advice for me?? I only take that and I reeeeally want to be done with this. My brother would say "just stop the bullshit" I hear him saying it now.. "Morticia I can not move on if you do not let me go" I just miss him he wasy best friend. Anywho any advice is greatly appreciated ... Have a great day everyone. Signing back on in a bit.

 

[Smoky]

Hi,
Welcome to Bluelight ! ! I am so very sorry for your loss. I lost my very best friend once, which started my addiction years ago. I understand on some level. Congrats on weaning down to 30mg. It's hard. I weaned off them as well. Here is the Kratom Mega Thread V.4 for starters, if interested.

BTW. May I move your thread to The Dark Side or Sober Living? There are members weaning in those forums, and TDS is very supportive. Either way, please just let me know.

 

[Morticia0328]

Thank you it took me about 2 months. I would have to say it definatly kicked me in the a**.
I am sorry for your loss as well. Death is permanent..something beyond our control. Of course you can move it to the appropriate location. (I will check those forums) thank you again. I will look at the info you provided for Kratom.

 

[palpa7]

sorry to hear that I lost best friend at 17 yrs old still passes my thoughts most days and im 50 now. ive lost lots of people mainly od it gets easier with time. you could read up on the stages of grief

 

[Morticia0328]

Thank you for responding. Yes I have also gone to grief meetings in hopes that this would ease my pain. Unfortunately he was my only family member that I had it was my brother. I had my first born 1 month before he passed. He never even got to meet her. I feel a lot of guilt still for not being able to save him. Hence turning down darker alleys for relief. I am sorry you have loss as well. It is one of the hardest things to deal with in life. I believe.