It was near-impossible to quit back when I didn't have chronic pain. Now, with the pain I am so dependent on the herb that unless this problem goes away in time, I will be here forever. It really is a shame that this medicine is not legally available everywhere in the world for me. I will be in misery, smoke some weed and go from crying like a schoolgirl to quasi-comfortable and able to smile. I am definitely extremely addicted but it is allowing me to live a comfortable life.
And I really don't know what the hell I'd ever do without weed. Alcohol eases the pain temporarily, but it makes me so stupid after. Opiates would just fuck with my sensation of the pain, and I wouldn't be able to be paying attention to my body in the hope of helping it to heal.