PermenantPingerDic
Greenlighter
Umm seeing that this story dates back around when i was 14 (now 22) , its a bit hard to remember much of the detail so here goes.
Id always thought it was cool to rock up to school stoned, and seeing that the circumstances at the time i could get free bud i would every now n then light up doobie or punch some cones on this particular instance preety much changed my life.
So i wake up at bout 7:00am, mum leaves the house to go to work not long after i arise, and the bus, which stops opposite my house leaves in bout a hour, so i get dressed , have a feed watch tele, n ive soaked up bout 40 mins in doing so, i get out the bong chop up,pack it up , punch the first cone everthing is sweet, pack another 2 smoke them too,i put everything back in their hidey holes.
Im thinking sweet this is gna be funny when i rock up to school, n then i start to feel light headed, n all airy, i sit down n notice my i can hear my heart beating a million miles an hour full on thudding, i start to think wtf this isnt what pot supposed to do, i look at the clock it reads 7:45 im like holy shit the bus arrives in 5 mins or so i grab my bag go to the bus stop n then i start getting massively paranoid that all the other kids r looking at me , i start sweating profusely, my mate whos waiting there says "yo dude u alright" i say " ive just smoked some pot and i feel weird", the paranoia of everyone looking at me thinking that ive gone crazy is overwhelming n i tell my mate i gotta go home i cant go to school like this..
I flee inside lock the door sit on the couch pretending its gonna go away , i put my hand to my chest n i can feel my heart racing thinking its gonna beat outta my chest or im gna have a heart attack , i start hear a "tick, tock" as if a amplifier was set up next to my ear it was so loud so i look at the clock intently disregarding what the time read, i noticed that the ticker seemed to be moving in slow motion and that my total time perception was fucked up, that scared me even more, i get up , n start to pace back n forth wondering wether ive gone crazy , should i ring my mum, what the fuck has happened here, i start having an anxiety attack , i have a million thoughts rolling through my head so i decide to go outside for fresh air..
I look around n noticed the bus had gone so some paranoia had lifted, i came up with the idea that maybe if i started running around in circles it would relieve the effects of pot?? (haha) , so i start running around in circles eventually getting tired, i decide to go back inside, my thoughts got louder n louder , wondering what to do, i realize im actually speaking out loud and that im talking to myself, and to try n lessen the freaked out state im in id recite jokes back to myself laughing out loud in hysterics to try n calm myself, to no avail i sit back down n finally crack under the pressure this aint going away what if i get stuck in this forever n i call the ambulance, i rung them and they asked the usual questions and i found it hard to give them my name address, etc thinking that what if i didnt really call the ambos and that infact i dialled the wrong number to sum stranger and that they might come round n kick my ass for smoking pot, but eventually i pull through and recalculate who i am , etc etc
Waiting for the ambos to arrive felt like an eternity, forever looking at the clock insulting my mental state by ticking in slow motion and making me wait forever. i hear a car pull up , peer out the window n its the ambos i rush outside confess what i done n they take me to the hospital , reassuring me everything was alright n i definitely didnt think so!
I cant really remember much at the hospital - but finding myself wrapped up in a blanket on a wheel chair n a bunch of doctors standing around me asking me a shit load of questions , n i remember them asking for my mothers mobile number which i knew off by heart n i couldnt remember it for shit. They place me in a room , give me some pills to swallow n told me to lie down on a bed.
Iwake up see my mum sitting next to me , n i remember saying "holy shit what the fuck have i done" haha, i look over at my mum n seeing that disappointed/worried looked they do , gave her a hug said im sorry bla bla bla, i go see the doctor who informs me i had a mild psychosis episode n im preety lucky to have "snapped" out of it, leave the hospital which was roughly round 3-4pm (same day), and for the next 2 years i suffered massive anxiety attacks and full flip out on seeing or hear anything bout drugs , eventually my mum (god love her) mentored me through those tough times, n now id say im almost fully recovered from that life scarring day, its not until about 12months ago ive started taking up xtc and other drug elements, but im way to scared ( lol ) to smoke weed (definitely steering clear of that)or smoke n e sorta drug for that matter but researching is helping me to be optimistic and open minded.
Bit rough around the edges but hope u enjoyed and looking back it was a good awakening and rather humorous in some flash back moments but seeing that ive been told we have schizophrenic gene disposition running through out family , so im wise in which i do drug in which is quite hypocritical that i guess its not wise at all to do drugs(for me anyway) haha xoxo....
Id always thought it was cool to rock up to school stoned, and seeing that the circumstances at the time i could get free bud i would every now n then light up doobie or punch some cones on this particular instance preety much changed my life.
So i wake up at bout 7:00am, mum leaves the house to go to work not long after i arise, and the bus, which stops opposite my house leaves in bout a hour, so i get dressed , have a feed watch tele, n ive soaked up bout 40 mins in doing so, i get out the bong chop up,pack it up , punch the first cone everthing is sweet, pack another 2 smoke them too,i put everything back in their hidey holes.
Im thinking sweet this is gna be funny when i rock up to school, n then i start to feel light headed, n all airy, i sit down n notice my i can hear my heart beating a million miles an hour full on thudding, i start to think wtf this isnt what pot supposed to do, i look at the clock it reads 7:45 im like holy shit the bus arrives in 5 mins or so i grab my bag go to the bus stop n then i start getting massively paranoid that all the other kids r looking at me , i start sweating profusely, my mate whos waiting there says "yo dude u alright" i say " ive just smoked some pot and i feel weird", the paranoia of everyone looking at me thinking that ive gone crazy is overwhelming n i tell my mate i gotta go home i cant go to school like this..
I flee inside lock the door sit on the couch pretending its gonna go away , i put my hand to my chest n i can feel my heart racing thinking its gonna beat outta my chest or im gna have a heart attack , i start hear a "tick, tock" as if a amplifier was set up next to my ear it was so loud so i look at the clock intently disregarding what the time read, i noticed that the ticker seemed to be moving in slow motion and that my total time perception was fucked up, that scared me even more, i get up , n start to pace back n forth wondering wether ive gone crazy , should i ring my mum, what the fuck has happened here, i start having an anxiety attack , i have a million thoughts rolling through my head so i decide to go outside for fresh air..
I look around n noticed the bus had gone so some paranoia had lifted, i came up with the idea that maybe if i started running around in circles it would relieve the effects of pot?? (haha) , so i start running around in circles eventually getting tired, i decide to go back inside, my thoughts got louder n louder , wondering what to do, i realize im actually speaking out loud and that im talking to myself, and to try n lessen the freaked out state im in id recite jokes back to myself laughing out loud in hysterics to try n calm myself, to no avail i sit back down n finally crack under the pressure this aint going away what if i get stuck in this forever n i call the ambulance, i rung them and they asked the usual questions and i found it hard to give them my name address, etc thinking that what if i didnt really call the ambos and that infact i dialled the wrong number to sum stranger and that they might come round n kick my ass for smoking pot, but eventually i pull through and recalculate who i am , etc etc
Waiting for the ambos to arrive felt like an eternity, forever looking at the clock insulting my mental state by ticking in slow motion and making me wait forever. i hear a car pull up , peer out the window n its the ambos i rush outside confess what i done n they take me to the hospital , reassuring me everything was alright n i definitely didnt think so!
I cant really remember much at the hospital - but finding myself wrapped up in a blanket on a wheel chair n a bunch of doctors standing around me asking me a shit load of questions , n i remember them asking for my mothers mobile number which i knew off by heart n i couldnt remember it for shit. They place me in a room , give me some pills to swallow n told me to lie down on a bed.
Iwake up see my mum sitting next to me , n i remember saying "holy shit what the fuck have i done" haha, i look over at my mum n seeing that disappointed/worried looked they do , gave her a hug said im sorry bla bla bla, i go see the doctor who informs me i had a mild psychosis episode n im preety lucky to have "snapped" out of it, leave the hospital which was roughly round 3-4pm (same day), and for the next 2 years i suffered massive anxiety attacks and full flip out on seeing or hear anything bout drugs , eventually my mum (god love her) mentored me through those tough times, n now id say im almost fully recovered from that life scarring day, its not until about 12months ago ive started taking up xtc and other drug elements, but im way to scared ( lol ) to smoke weed (definitely steering clear of that)or smoke n e sorta drug for that matter but researching is helping me to be optimistic and open minded.
Bit rough around the edges but hope u enjoyed and looking back it was a good awakening and rather humorous in some flash back moments but seeing that ive been told we have schizophrenic gene disposition running through out family , so im wise in which i do drug in which is quite hypocritical that i guess its not wise at all to do drugs(for me anyway) haha xoxo....
