lilfoot
Bluelighter
hey guys, know i've started a couple topics in the past week or so, but i really wanted to ask this question, because sometimes i feel like i'm alone in this 
for a long time i smoked weed CONSTANTLY and loved every second of it. i smoked the most weed of all with a certain friend of mine, who i trusted and thought was a really nice guy. at that point i would sometimes get nervous on weed, but it would go away as quick as it came, and i would just be relaxing and feeling awesome. however, one night while me, him and another guy were all rolling super hard at his house, i saw a side of him that i never realized was there, and without going into details, it was really a seriously traumatic experience for me (think violence and rolling - not a good mix). i was unable to sleep with the lights off for well over 2 weeks, and had to pray constantly any time i was alone just so the thoughts wouldn't overwhelm me. i was so freaked out i left a 450 dollar toro bong over at his house just because i was so scared of having to see him again.
ever since then, any time i smoke weed i become instantly paranoid. at a movie theater the other day, after me and my girlfriend smoked, she was digging through her purse, and i suddenly became terrified that she was about to pull a gun out of her bag and kill herself. i actually physically grabbed her hand and pulled it out of her purse because i was so scared, and she looked at me like, wtf??? i can handle large doses of 2c-e, LSD, mushrooms, whatever and i'm fine, zero paranoia, i just feel content. but the second you add pot into the mix i just feel like breaking down and curling into a ball and hyperventilating for two hours. i often wind up just praying silently the entire time that i'm high for it to all just end. i also tried to have sex while high just the other night and before i could even get past the feeling up stage my breathing was so erratic and heavy and fast and my nerves were so frazzled i had to just stop and force myself to slow down and center before i freaked out.
i feel completely unlike myself when i smoke weed and it gives me serious, honest-to-god paranoid delusions. to be truthful i absolutely hate it.
is there anyone else on here who has that problem?

for a long time i smoked weed CONSTANTLY and loved every second of it. i smoked the most weed of all with a certain friend of mine, who i trusted and thought was a really nice guy. at that point i would sometimes get nervous on weed, but it would go away as quick as it came, and i would just be relaxing and feeling awesome. however, one night while me, him and another guy were all rolling super hard at his house, i saw a side of him that i never realized was there, and without going into details, it was really a seriously traumatic experience for me (think violence and rolling - not a good mix). i was unable to sleep with the lights off for well over 2 weeks, and had to pray constantly any time i was alone just so the thoughts wouldn't overwhelm me. i was so freaked out i left a 450 dollar toro bong over at his house just because i was so scared of having to see him again.
ever since then, any time i smoke weed i become instantly paranoid. at a movie theater the other day, after me and my girlfriend smoked, she was digging through her purse, and i suddenly became terrified that she was about to pull a gun out of her bag and kill herself. i actually physically grabbed her hand and pulled it out of her purse because i was so scared, and she looked at me like, wtf??? i can handle large doses of 2c-e, LSD, mushrooms, whatever and i'm fine, zero paranoia, i just feel content. but the second you add pot into the mix i just feel like breaking down and curling into a ball and hyperventilating for two hours. i often wind up just praying silently the entire time that i'm high for it to all just end. i also tried to have sex while high just the other night and before i could even get past the feeling up stage my breathing was so erratic and heavy and fast and my nerves were so frazzled i had to just stop and force myself to slow down and center before i freaked out.
i feel completely unlike myself when i smoke weed and it gives me serious, honest-to-god paranoid delusions. to be truthful i absolutely hate it.
is there anyone else on here who has that problem?

