inb4 tl;dr
I smoked pot for a couple of years when I became a psychonaut because I guess I thought that’s what psychonauts should do and I was excited to discover non-sober living. However, I never really liked it despite smoking compulsively once or twice a day, and after getting fat and apparently exacerbating issues with depression, anxiety, and lack of motivation I realized "Duh, it’s not for me" and stopped.
Fast-forward to now another year or so later. After trying meth a few times recently it quickly stopped making me want to "do stuff" or focus, but I kept doing it once or twice a month when I needed to be sociable or just out of boredom, at low-ish doses (15-30mg a day, maybe 40 once). Last time I used it I needed to be sociable more often than usual that week and justified increasing the frequency, but I discovered that at my doses it really didn’t give the same effect (interesting and unlike most drugs, neither in terms of the high nor the side effects). No real energy, heart rate unaffected, none of the pretty-bad gurning I had been getting at first--and most importantly unlike when I was feeling the proper effect before, it had stopped improving my musicianship (which I confirmed it had been doing by recording myself sober and high multiple times).
Heeding this glaring warning sign, I completely quit for 3 weeks (to date (so no need to chide me--I know)), but something interesting happened during this last "dud tweek".
Taking a dose that was the second in two days and the third in a week, I realized that the effect of the drug had almost completely vanished (with the same 25mg that had me flying a week prior). I only had 10mg left on hand and I ended up bumping it in 2m increments over an hour or so, but still nothing.
I had been thinking about trying it with some weed after a tolerance break, and it occurred to me that I could salvage enough keif from my old grinder to get a decent hit, so I decided to see what would happen and did so. The results were shocking.
Essentially I never "liked" weed because it simply made me become anxious, overeat and sleep with only occasional moments of enjoyability. Even the first time I ever smoked was a bit of a "bad trip". But this time it was not only much more pleasant than weed had ever been, it apparently potentiated the meth that was having no noticeable effect on me--and I use potentiation rather than synergy because it brought my heart rate up to meth levels and made me start gurning a bit, etc., which would seem to suggest something interesting in terms of brain chemistry that I’m not smart enough to be knowledgeable of.
Anyway, I had been planning to practice playing an instrument after the weed had worn off, because unlike some people weed confuses me and make me unable to play or compose. Conversely, at sufficiently high doses the meth had increased my musicianship as stated above.
However, on a whim and because I had been filled with unexpected energy I decided to play right then, with the combo. As I was tuning the instrument and preparing to play, I found myself noodling and then writing and recording riffs. I used to write a lot without even trying, like songs would just come to me, but since depression that eventually stopped happening so this sudden rush of creativity was shocking--like feeling an emotion I had forgotten, and in that sense not unlike a nice roll. The music sounded better, I played marginally better and much more confidently, and after recording myself and checking I confirmed that my playing was as good as I’d ever played--including during the proper meth highs.
It was almost as if the meth had caused me to experience weed the way I had always heard it described (as an aside, weed while rolling has always been anxiety-free and pleasant but HIGHLY confusing). This mutual synergy has me excited to try again after a tolerance break, but I’m abstaining from stimming for a while longer so I’ll have to wait and see.
I assume most people who use meth also smoke weed and so this tl;dr post will be useful to exactly no one, but I like to write diaries and shit and figured I might as well share.
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I smoked pot for a couple of years when I became a psychonaut because I guess I thought that’s what psychonauts should do and I was excited to discover non-sober living. However, I never really liked it despite smoking compulsively once or twice a day, and after getting fat and apparently exacerbating issues with depression, anxiety, and lack of motivation I realized "Duh, it’s not for me" and stopped.
Fast-forward to now another year or so later. After trying meth a few times recently it quickly stopped making me want to "do stuff" or focus, but I kept doing it once or twice a month when I needed to be sociable or just out of boredom, at low-ish doses (15-30mg a day, maybe 40 once). Last time I used it I needed to be sociable more often than usual that week and justified increasing the frequency, but I discovered that at my doses it really didn’t give the same effect (interesting and unlike most drugs, neither in terms of the high nor the side effects). No real energy, heart rate unaffected, none of the pretty-bad gurning I had been getting at first--and most importantly unlike when I was feeling the proper effect before, it had stopped improving my musicianship (which I confirmed it had been doing by recording myself sober and high multiple times).
Heeding this glaring warning sign, I completely quit for 3 weeks (to date (so no need to chide me--I know)), but something interesting happened during this last "dud tweek".
Taking a dose that was the second in two days and the third in a week, I realized that the effect of the drug had almost completely vanished (with the same 25mg that had me flying a week prior). I only had 10mg left on hand and I ended up bumping it in 2m increments over an hour or so, but still nothing.
I had been thinking about trying it with some weed after a tolerance break, and it occurred to me that I could salvage enough keif from my old grinder to get a decent hit, so I decided to see what would happen and did so. The results were shocking.
Essentially I never "liked" weed because it simply made me become anxious, overeat and sleep with only occasional moments of enjoyability. Even the first time I ever smoked was a bit of a "bad trip". But this time it was not only much more pleasant than weed had ever been, it apparently potentiated the meth that was having no noticeable effect on me--and I use potentiation rather than synergy because it brought my heart rate up to meth levels and made me start gurning a bit, etc., which would seem to suggest something interesting in terms of brain chemistry that I’m not smart enough to be knowledgeable of.
Anyway, I had been planning to practice playing an instrument after the weed had worn off, because unlike some people weed confuses me and make me unable to play or compose. Conversely, at sufficiently high doses the meth had increased my musicianship as stated above.
However, on a whim and because I had been filled with unexpected energy I decided to play right then, with the combo. As I was tuning the instrument and preparing to play, I found myself noodling and then writing and recording riffs. I used to write a lot without even trying, like songs would just come to me, but since depression that eventually stopped happening so this sudden rush of creativity was shocking--like feeling an emotion I had forgotten, and in that sense not unlike a nice roll. The music sounded better, I played marginally better and much more confidently, and after recording myself and checking I confirmed that my playing was as good as I’d ever played--including during the proper meth highs.
It was almost as if the meth had caused me to experience weed the way I had always heard it described (as an aside, weed while rolling has always been anxiety-free and pleasant but HIGHLY confusing). This mutual synergy has me excited to try again after a tolerance break, but I’m abstaining from stimming for a while longer so I’ll have to wait and see.
I assume most people who use meth also smoke weed and so this tl;dr post will be useful to exactly no one, but I like to write diaries and shit and figured I might as well share.
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exptype_glowing
_combo_
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