can anyone eles look at someone and just see right into their soul? like who they are behind everything eles in life, or as they were before certain events changed who they were..
i cant turn it off and it makes me so rediculously sad and it magnifies the fuck out of my own self contradictory nature (to the point that its hard to ignore you know?).
besides that, it looks like i missed like a half decade (well if we call pages years) of posts last night. lol. im not gonna read it, so i hope you all had good trips and all that.
last night i went over to a bands house and just chilled for a while and then went to this artshow/ music show downtown.
theres this girl i knew (but kinda just met recently) that plays guitar better than most guys i know and is cool as fuck in general. played some musiccc.
other than that i was feelin mad weird cuz this girl ive known and really just had this huge crush on for years was crushing on one of the dudes that lives at the band house and so they were all like makin out and shit, so it made it real weird. and it definatly didnt help the fact that ive had this growing feeling of aloneness even when im in a crowded room. added to it.
go foward a while n the shows over and were back at the bands house... get a lil shwillly and everything was alright. was talking with this dude thats mad cool that writes kinda like i do. its cool meeting writers and being tipsy with a bunch of cool people