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*Waves* Genetic ex junkie

ZiaZia

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I've been viewing this forum for a few months now and decided to join, finally. My 1st post today was about my 1st time experience with near death/1st time heroin use .. anyways.

I was raised around drugs, started in my childhood .. mother was a kick arse bass guitarist back in the 80's with a heroin junkie husband who playing guitar in her band, who in return introduced her to the devil. Five years of watching my mother struggle with a heroin addiction when I was younger, Ludes were popular back then, the drinking, the constant moving around because of the band and yet the most amazing think about that life was the music .. believe it or not.
(Mom was besties with a few of the older well known country musicians and it was nothing for a limo to pick her up and unlimited amounts of cocaine be supplied)

At 12 I hit my first water bong, at 14 I started sneaking schnapps to drink from Pops, by 16 I had already tried Hash and taken a few pain pills and by 20 I had pretty much experienced every drug (even acid/shrooms). So yeah, I've struggled with this my whole life.


By 30 I experienced a stint in rehab after loving opiates too much .. which I can say did help for a few years, and I managed to stay clean after suboxone treatment.

My mother doesn't play anymore and after many injuries, she still does pills at her age, but doesn't drink or do anything else. And here I am, living proof that being raised around it can influence you and also it can be genetic. Many, many people in my family are addicts, but I'm trying to stay clean.

I've experienced it all guys, really .. I've seen people OD (even my own mom) growing up, lost my father young, experienced my own struggles with addiction, yet somehow, nothing has broken my spirit .. yet.

Thanks for reading! I will not judge you, I promise.
 
Welcome to bluelight!
I've been a junkie since I was 15 or so started with pills which led to dealing heroin and having as much as I could ever want a seemingly endless supply of china white heroin and cocaine both as pure as your gonna get. From there on it was speedballing as much as I could all day everyday, while trying to function I was poisoning and killing myself slowly.
After almost a decade im on suboxone after numerous failed attempts to detox at the local detox facility and stay sober when I got out.

Good luck let me know if you need any help I'm here for the newbies
Good to have you on board and have fun.
These will give you some insight on how the site is run and the rules

Green lighters(newbies) guide-
http://wiki.bluelight.org/index.php/Greenlighters_guide

BLUA(user agreement)
http://wiki.bluelight.org/index.php/...ent_(BLUA)

If you want some help getting around the site or a buddy to talk to then you can always message me Im on the list of people willing to adopt you can find the link if you want to be adopted by me or another experienced member here-

Nmi adoption program-

http://www.bluelight.org/vb/threads/...Program-v-2014


Here's some drug forums you may like:

Basic drug discussion
http://www.bluelight.org/vb/forums/16-Basic-Drug-Discussion

Other drugs-

http://www.bluelight.org/vb/forums/58-Other-Drugs

sober living-

http://www.bluelight.org/vb/forums/269-Sober-Living

Good luck don't be afraid to ask for help that's what I'm here for.
 
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Welcome to bluelight!
I've been a junkie since I was 15 or so started with pills which led to dealing heroin and having as much as I could ever want a seemingly endless supply of china white heroin and cocaine both as pure as your gonna get. From there on it was speedballing as much as I could all day everyday, while trying to function I was poisoning and killing myself slowly.
After almost a decade im on suboxone after numerous failed attempts to detox at the local detox facility and stay sober when I got out.


Thank you!
 
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