Flowerpotman
Bluelighter
- Joined
- May 2, 2017
- Messages
- 57
Was silly
I?ve been legit on painkillers for a couple of years. This summer I got to housesit a relatives place. I treated it like a holiday and discovered I could buy drugs via websites so I went a little OTT. Just basic stuff? DHC and codeine. I began to feel suicidal so I started tapering. I was on 7 days worth of Codeine and DHC a day and now I?m down to 3. I tried to offset the lull in mood with Sudafed decongestant. For some reason it really affects me. I get a high similar to an opiate for some reason.
Anywho my depression got stronger but the worst part was the derealisation I got from the Sudafed. Never before have I felt like I might genuinely be going insane! (Does anyone else take Sudafed recreationaly?)
Now I?ve stopped taking them I?ve noticed I?m feeling okay but I?m hella tired.
As for the opiate side of things I?m tapering with loperamide. I dunno why I find it real was to taper with that. I have 6 packs (of 6 pills) a day and each day I just have 1 less pill. The body doesn?t even notice it. I?ve mentioned this kind of taper before but then the summer came and I wanted some opiates. Oops! So back at it I go!
(I don?t feel suicidal as much any more. If it ever got close I?d just phone a support line or even make my way to hospital. I could never actually do it)
I?ve been legit on painkillers for a couple of years. This summer I got to housesit a relatives place. I treated it like a holiday and discovered I could buy drugs via websites so I went a little OTT. Just basic stuff? DHC and codeine. I began to feel suicidal so I started tapering. I was on 7 days worth of Codeine and DHC a day and now I?m down to 3. I tried to offset the lull in mood with Sudafed decongestant. For some reason it really affects me. I get a high similar to an opiate for some reason.
Anywho my depression got stronger but the worst part was the derealisation I got from the Sudafed. Never before have I felt like I might genuinely be going insane! (Does anyone else take Sudafed recreationaly?)
Now I?ve stopped taking them I?ve noticed I?m feeling okay but I?m hella tired.
As for the opiate side of things I?m tapering with loperamide. I dunno why I find it real was to taper with that. I have 6 packs (of 6 pills) a day and each day I just have 1 less pill. The body doesn?t even notice it. I?ve mentioned this kind of taper before but then the summer came and I wanted some opiates. Oops! So back at it I go!
(I don?t feel suicidal as much any more. If it ever got close I?d just phone a support line or even make my way to hospital. I could never actually do it)
