Was it really that easy?

[danceofdays]

For basically all of the last seven months, I've been doing oxy and/or hydromorphone every day all day. The last month or so of it was the equivalent of a 40 or an 8 and a bit a day, starting when I woke up and ending when I went to bed doing little lines all day.

Sunday was the last day I followed my old regime.
Monday I did about 30mg of oxy.
Tuesday about 20mg. Same with Wednesday, but a little less. Felt a little unwell both days (watery eyes, runny nose, etc).
Thursday I took one 5mg percocet when I woke up and I haven't done any opiates since.

It's now Friday morning and usually when I wake up, my eyes are watering profusely and I literally can't get out of bed until I do at least a bump of something. But I actually feel OK. I've been a little mentally underwhelmed so to speak since I started the taper, but I've also been using low doses of lorazepam (0.5mgs) and clonazepam (0.25mg) to help chill out and get decent sleeps.

So my question is, it's been 24 hours since I finished the taper - is it gonna get worse and worse from here like a typical w/d, or would the taper have been enough to get rid of most of the symptoms? Because for all intents and purposes I feel OK right now, maybe like I have a bit of a cold, but I'm curious whether the next few days are going to be a living hell or not. Thanks.

 

[The Hebrew Hammer]

it will get worse for about 2 to 3 days then start to get better slowly

That is, if you dont relapse, which I hope you dont.


edit:although, thats not too big of a habbit, most of it is in your head at those dosages.

 

[danceofdays]

Well, it's been two days and it's only gotten better. It's weird going back to the way things were before OC - it made sure I slept for 8-9 hours straight and lasted forever in bed - now once again I'm waking up after 6-7 hours with no hope of getting back to sleep and having to work hard to not finish early. It's been pretty weird "rediscovering" the old me in ways like this. But I know I have to stick to this, and I'm fucking going to this time.

I'm assuming that trying to chip and do some every once in a while (maybe twice a month or less) is a bad idea that is pretty much guaranteed to fail? The most I was ever doing was maybe 100mg a day.

Also, I've been taking my prescribed propanolol 20mg three times a day, whereas I used to rarely take it ever. Could that be making the difference? Because at this point, besides a short temper and really wanting to get baked (I'm usually an all-day-every-day guy but haven't been able to since I started the taper for environmental reasons, and won't be able to again for a week) I don't feel that bad at all right now.

 

[Bezonian]

Once you get past the initial withdrawl and lower your tolerance, if you have the willpower I'd say occasional usage isn't a bad thing. I would suggest keeping track of your usage and setting a limit for how many times you take opiates in a month. That way you can keep your tolerance down, and enjoy them more whilst reducing the chance of a relapse.

 

[danceofdays]

True. I'm thinking the only exceptions I'd make would be before having sex (doesn't happen more than a few times a month for me these days) and while tripping, because I don't know if I can enjoy shrooms without oxy anymore, combining the two was just too good. I guess I should add that I only trip 1-4 times a year, and haven't since the middle of the summer.