coralsands
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Sep 22, 2011
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- 23
iv been smoking bud for quite a while but iv never really had a bad tolerance, its always been pretty low. but a few weird things happen when i smoke too much or with people i dont know. so when i smoke alot around other people i get this thing where i cant understand what people are saying, like i can hear them but i cant comprehend what theyre saying. on top of that sometimes i cant physically speak, like i try to but no sound comes out (that might be psycosematic though, or just from the extreme anxiety that i get from some bud). and when i smoke too much at home i feel insects and mice crawling all over me but theres nothing there. like iv obviously heard of people seeing shit and hearing shit but iv never heard anyone feeling shit that isnt there. and its extremely vivid sometimes too. i actually think it mightve started after a dxm binge which kinda makes sense, i was downing robitussin everyday because i had that were into it, on top of working 8-10 hour shifts with like 4-6 hours of sleep a night which went on for about a month and a half. like my mental state at the end of that was obviously fucked up, like delusions and occasionally seeing things out of the corner of my eyes and such but that only lasted a week or two. id just moved out of my dads cuz he lived in a shithole (there is literally no other way to describe that trailer) and i was sick of waking up to rats running past and over me. that might kind of explain the whole insects and rats thing but iv had the whole 'not comprehending speech thing' since i started smoking. my main question is do you think that these are early signs of schizophrenia or some other mental problem or am i just getting really really high?
sorry about the length and if this is stupid, just realized iv never talked to anyone about this before and im really curious
sorry about the length and if this is stupid, just realized iv never talked to anyone about this before and im really curious

