ABL23
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Nov 12, 2012
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- 75
So it's official. I have realized that I have lost control of myself and I am powerless. I have been doing Oxycodone for a little over 6 months now. For the first 2 months I did it every single day, anywhere for 60-90mg but on average 60mg. After those 2 months I ran out of money so I had to start investing in Suboxone when I couldn't afford oxy. On the days I took sub I would take a tiny piece of an 8mg strip twice a day (every 12 hours basically). I cannot keep going on like this, I am spending all my money on this stupid drug that I don't even like taking, I hate it in fact. I just want this to be over, no more oxycodone, no more suboxone.
The problem is that I am absolutely scared to death. I am afraid I will go through weeks of painful withdrawal and I will just end up relapsing and it will never end. How can I stop this? Of course now I don't take it every single day, and when I do it's usually just 1 30mg pill. 1 8mg sub will last me roughly a week to a week and a half, and right now I have 1 left basically. If I tapor down with this sub for the next week and then try to kick will I be more successful because of the tapor or should I just straight up kick?
I have to work A TON this weekend so I can't try to quit now and then be sick and stuff at work so If I attempt to quit going cold turkey I can't start until monday. However, I will need to work that weekend though so if I start monday I need to be well by that weekend to go to work. So how long am I looking at as far as withdrawals go? Will it just be like having the flu for a few days or am I looking at a real struggle here? Depending on the responses I get I will either taper down over the next few days and totally quit on monday or I think I will just have to come clean to my parents and say I need rehab.
I appreciate all of the help in advance. I am absolutely fucking terrified and I hate myself for getting myself into this situation. I used to just be the happy stoner about to finish college and get into the music business but I just had to go and lose control of myself and I might have possibly fucked my life up forever. Please help.
The problem is that I am absolutely scared to death. I am afraid I will go through weeks of painful withdrawal and I will just end up relapsing and it will never end. How can I stop this? Of course now I don't take it every single day, and when I do it's usually just 1 30mg pill. 1 8mg sub will last me roughly a week to a week and a half, and right now I have 1 left basically. If I tapor down with this sub for the next week and then try to kick will I be more successful because of the tapor or should I just straight up kick?
I have to work A TON this weekend so I can't try to quit now and then be sick and stuff at work so If I attempt to quit going cold turkey I can't start until monday. However, I will need to work that weekend though so if I start monday I need to be well by that weekend to go to work. So how long am I looking at as far as withdrawals go? Will it just be like having the flu for a few days or am I looking at a real struggle here? Depending on the responses I get I will either taper down over the next few days and totally quit on monday or I think I will just have to come clean to my parents and say I need rehab.
I appreciate all of the help in advance. I am absolutely fucking terrified and I hate myself for getting myself into this situation. I used to just be the happy stoner about to finish college and get into the music business but I just had to go and lose control of myself and I might have possibly fucked my life up forever. Please help.
