Once you set out to do it and commit to it, once you are ready to quit it gets considerably easier. Opioid addicts are babies (I am a junkie too). We have no patience and build things up to be worse than they really will be. Tapering will considerably lessen the struggle, it wont be a walk in the park but it'll mostly be just minor discomfort if you taper correctlyl and more importantly it will be over in a matter of 5 or so days. So many times I have gone without for a few days, right in the thick of it and just copped more and started the cycle again when it was just about over. You are the one who decides how bad it is, the withdrawal feels miserable but you have the choice to let those feelings become you or be strong and just deal with it and remind yourself exactly how much you want this and that the suffering is only temporary.