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mdma120

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Hello everybody,
i've been taking E over the last 6 years. Lately, i've been taken less E (once a month or so), but what i noticed is that i replace it by other kind of drugs. I don't take drugs during the week (except for a joint), but on friday, i start craving for cocaine (i've been using it since 1 year now, every weekend). It's always the same story, when i take coke, i start thinking of the bad things it does to my body, etc... i always feel like guilty, also the first days of the week... I'm always thinking like "the next weekend i'm not gonna use anything!"
then on thursday, i start craving really bad and i don't care about the negative feelings i experienced a couple of days before. I even sometimes dream about coke & snorting lines! On friday, when i think about using coke, i start trembling already and need to go to the toilet a couple of times(anyone else has this problem?). I know i am an addict, not a daily addict but more like a weekend addict.
I'm too weak-minded to stop thinking about it/ using it, does anyone know some kind of medication you can order on the internet so the craving is not so bad? I've been using tryptophan lately, it makes me feel good & sleep good, but sometimes i feel so good that i wanna take drugs. I'm almost 25 now, and i'm not able to have a serious relationship because of the drugs... (who wants to have a relationship with a person that is only happy in the weekend!)...
i hope this doesn't sound to ridiculous... :) i like drugs a lot but... my mood is affected & i am experiencing agressive thoughts during the week (especially when i'm driving, sometimes i feel like hitting someone or crashing my car if the person ahead of me doesn't drive fast enough)..
anyway, thanks for listening :)
kind regards,
R.
 
i also would like to mention that, when i'm having these agressive thoughts, i have these tingling sensation under my scalp (formication?)... anone else has this? i think it must be brain damage due to the continues drug abuse of the last years...
 
I feel for you...I have experienced the same thing...especially with coke! It was a nightmare for me....Id have a hell of a time all weekend...and I would go to bed crying cause my nose hurt so damn bad! Too be honest, at that time I did not seek help, but just decided to quit. I actually had to smoke weed everyday to get my mind of the cravings for the yayo-which probably was not good either lol-but eventually I drifted away from it. Now I can honestly say I do it and it is nothing special. And I was ADDICTED as hell to the shit! Hey when something is SO much fun, is hard to give it up i know! ANYWAY, my point was that I can relate to you. As far as medication, I know that psych. will sometimes try wellbutrin for you, its supposed to help kill cravings. Check with your DR. if you REALLY want to give up drugs :)
 
I also have the needs to use in the weekends. Last time i did'nt use i can't remember. I have a really craving for stimulants in the weekend, especially coke and mdma. just can't help it...
and when its not weekend i use MJ, its very relaxing.
 
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