Walking on thin ice

....I gotta start off by saying:
Fuck 2010..
Fuck the Police..
Fuck the motherfuckin' State of Arizona..
and Fuck Opiate Addiction, man.

-This year has kicked my ass, so fucking hard..it's drove me to the brink-of-insanity, I truely believe....
My birthday is in a few days(the 14th), and I sort of feel like it's the last one, I will live to see..I hope I'm wrong, but on the other-hand I am so tired, I just want out of life, to a point...though, I am not sucidal, really.

At the moment; My Heroin problem is weighing me down, more then ever. I am a wreck. I've almost lost my hands/arm in the past 5 months, on 4 diffrent trips to the E.R. (when it was too far gone, to just lance/drain at home.)
And right now, I am facing 2 felony's, for possesion of H +plus some rigs and a spoon.
I took the fall for my 2 other friends, who were scoring with me..but, see I just couldn't let them take the fall, they both have they're own seperate issues with the law, in the past, and figured they would have gotten the book thrown at them, if they would have gotten popped for this shit..So me being Mr.Loyal Friend as usual..offered myself on a silver-dish for the Cops to feast upon.

And my buddies don't even wanna bother to help me except one time with scoring some dope...ha, loyalty is so over-rated, I'm a fucking idiot for ever believing in friendship or love, man. ...so it seems is a thing of the past; dead, cold, bloated and distorted.

I'm out,
to all who read this, please keep me in your thoughts, I goto court and get my sentence on December 27th. I could use it guys and gals.