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Walkin' the Line-Bye OC

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MorpheusKain

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So I finally put down the needle (for good) after a ferocious several year long opiate habit three months ago. The drugs filled every void in my hollow existence with an affinity I believe very few other things in life possess. Only through striving to do more for others did I finally reach the point where I was truly motivated enough to end my own self destruction. I believe that this wa s a less than ideal way to reach the point of not wanting to return, but as a former addict I'll accept it HOWEVER it came.

Now for the first time since I truly never wanted to look back I am experience the skin crawling, stomach folding, sweat inducing, and logic emptying cravings that make junkies do the CRAZY shit they're famous for. Fuckin' sucks. :X

I'm gonna make it. Even if it's for nothing else than the ability to look myself in the mirror with something other than disgust, but damn I wish I was done. I've got a very gnawing suspicion that this isn't the last time this is going to happen, and I hope someone else will either be forewarned by this, or will be able to draw the strength to stay on the hard path.
 
Congratulations for getting clean, and best of luck to you for staying clean!

Have you checked out the Opiate thread yet, by the way? Lots of advice in there for those who are trying or have succeeded in quitting opiates of all stripes.
 
opiate addiction is a bitch. I also put down the needle about two years ago, I still do opiates but I take them orally and just enough to where it gets rid of my anxiety and depression. Opioids have drastically altered my brain, so now when I don't have any opiates, I'm an anxious depressed mess. Good job on putting down the needle and getting clean.
 
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