For a period of time last year I was using AMT very frequently, 4-5 times a week sometimes. Whenever I used it 3 or 4 days in a row, the night I stopped and 2-3 nights after I would have incredibly vivid dreams, especially when I took melatonin before bed. Ordinarily I do not remember my dreams much... it's in large part due to marijuana consumption. But I want to describe for you the most intense dream I've ever had, which came during the day after an AMT binge.
I suddenly wake up with my right eye feeling incredibly dry and irritated. It isn't painful, but nevertheless is very uncomfortable. I jump up out of my bed, and notice that my fiance is not there, nor are my kitties. As I make my way to the bathroom down the hall, I notice my dad is sleeping on a cot in the next room, for some reason. He wakes up and looks annoyed that I'm up. I get into the bathroom and look at myself in the reflection, and I notice that there is blood leaking out of the corner of my eye socket. I then note with a significant amount of alarm that, right before my eyes, the area around my eye socket is beginning to "cave in", sort of like I had had a terrible accident long ago which had healed over but left a lack of bone and tissue, and/or I had been born with a physical deformity. I notice, in addition to blood, a whitish-blue toothpaste-like minty substance leaking out as well.
I figure at this point that it must be a dream, even though it seems as real as anything ever has. I begin pinching myself and slapping my face, trying to wake up (as I am quite sure it's a dream... after all, the thing with my eye makes no sense at all). However, I have no luck. It's at this point that my dad gets up and I start telling him frantically about my eye. He just looks at me with some amount of disgust as well as a sense of patience worn thin nearly to the breaking point, and tells me to go back to sleep. Well, sorry dad, I can't, my face is caving in on itself and my eye, although it doesn't hurt, feels intensely uncomfortable and just wrong.
At this point, I realize that my fiance and kitties, my family, are not anywhere to be found in the apartment. I go back to my dad and ask him about them, with much concern in my voice. he looks at me like I'm crazy and tells me that it's time to go.
Flash forward... I don't remember how we got there but we were in my parents' car (my parents by the way live halfway across the country from me). My mom and dad are both there now, and I'm getting increasingly freaked out by both my deteriorating eye area as well as, even moreso, by the fact that the people/animals I love seem to not exist. This is confirmed by the fact that my mom is wondering what the hell I'm babbling about. They are giving me the treatment as if I frequently have no idea what I'm talking about. Some comments are made about drugs in a very derogatory manner. They think I am on drugs and I'm delusional. But no! I tell them. You don't understand, I'm not where I'm supposed to be, this isn't right, this is a dream! Why can't I wake up?? I start slapping myself and slamming myself up against the sides of the car, trying to shock myself awake. Surely this has to be a dream... this makes no sense. Everything about it is like a dream... except that it feels so completely real and solid. And I can't wake up.
I tell my parents I need to go to the hospital because my eye is starting totally open up to the inside of my head. I can put my finger in and reach back into some areas I am not supposed to be able to reach, which obviously scares me. But they seem to be mostly ignoring me, just trying to forget about my antics except to sometimes try to shut me up. They seem to be losing patience, as if this is an age-old struggle and they just want to be at peace. As if they are tired of me. We are in the car for a long time. I'm freaking out because my eye is caving in, everything I recognize is gone, and I need to be at work. During this time I go around and around in my head... am I dreaming? I must be. But if so, why can't I wake up? Why does this feel just as real as anything else? Was my previous life a dream? Is this where I really am, and I'm some raving nutcase who was in a positive place for a while but removed from reality? As time goes on, I begin to despair, and I slowly am forced to accept that I may be stuck somewhere else. And I don't know the way back.
At this point I am feeling low. The experience has been going on for hours... it's the late afternoon now, and it started in the morning. We arrive somewhere and get out. I notice the place isn't the hospital, but some large mansion I've never seen before. We go in and I trudge around, totally defeated, thinking it's all hopeless. The ones I love are gone, my parents evidently hate me and/or I'm insane. There's no way back. I go to the bathroom and look in the mirror. My eyeball, which had up until now remained intact even though my skull had been caving in around it, turns black, shrivels up, and falls out. I can still see out of the eye however. This is just too much for me. I walk over to my mom, feeling utterly hopeless and helpless. I break down and explain the whole thing to her, crying my eyes (eye) out. At once, she turns from looking disgusted to a look of total understanding and wisdom. She catches and holds my gaze and the look makes me stop crying. She then says to me "remember, reality is just what you make of it". Then a feeling of peace and acceptance fills me, and I close my eyes.
When I open them again, I am back in my bedroom, exactly like the last time I "woke up". My eye still feels really strange. I jump up in concern and run to the bathroom. No dad this time. And my eye looks fine. As I realize my eye is not caving in, the feeling fades away. I go back to my bedroom and see my fiance and kitties sleeping peacefully. Nearly weeping with thankfulness, I get back in bed. Then I decide to just stay up... no need to provoke that kind of dream again.
That was by far the most intense dreaming experience I've ever had. After AMT abuse I have also had lots of sleep paralysis/drteam combinations which were lifelike and extremely intense, but none so overwhelming. I've had dreams within dreams within dreams, and two different dreams about the end of the world. These were all around the same period of time.