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Waiting for Drugs...

placid space said:
Sure, I get it. But for (most) addicts its not as easy as "fuck it, Ill just go home" or somewhere else. And youre talking about "crossing the line" if youre at that point where you need to wait. Heh, I think Its safe to assume being an addict and scoring drugs, youre pretty much way over that line already. If youre not and youre not addicted then this debate is kinda moot or youre just extremely mentally tough to be willing to go through w/d on account of pride.
I honestly hope you never find yourself in a place where your only alternative to leaving is going home to withdraw, badly. It sucks when the dude having the best sh*t is unreliable and puts you in danger of being caught.
It is a great feeling to say *fuck it* and leave when theyre not on time again. Luckly today, I could also afford to do that if I wanted to cop some. Unfortunately it wasnt always like that and for many if not most addicts, it mostly either waiting or getting sick(er).
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:) What I mean about crossing the line, many re already crossed it long time ago :) I crossed, then came back lol. I think the reason we are off a little is I'm looking at it from an in control recreational thing as opposed to addicted beyond that stage. So from a recreational user that can stop any time your sign would be that its getting out of hand would be what Im talking about or my view. But for someone that is addicted these behaviors are still signs that someone should pay attention to, even if they ignore them lol:) My actual drug of choice is weed although I have used any in a long time, but when I am I always have some, that doesnt mean I'm addicted and crossing a line.
When I party I binge for 2-5 days, I checkout from normal friends & Family, I usually cant make it past day 3 without burning down, so a little sleep recoup and go another day or 2. I do it regular, like weekly but When I get my stuff I get the amount I want for the time and my signal to stop is when I run out. I dont go and get more to keep going. I chill, eat, sleep be responsible then go again. So I always have the comedown every time, I just accept that as part of the price I pay to have fun. Usually takes me a full day and half a day to recoup and I'm good. I continue the behavior not because I "need" it, but because I want it. So if I go a week or more without, the desire to party/get high is there as something to do, not because my body needs a fix. I get past that on the first day without.
Being functional and responsible is my top priority and I am pretty strong minded, there is no lack of willpower in my corner so maybe I'm lucky that I recoup quick and have good self control that makes it easy for me to say "fuck it" :) One of my little sayings is "be smater than the thing you're working with". So I just am smarter than the drug and although I have the same effects and symptoms as everyone else I dont let those things over power my thinking.
But, I only have ONE connection. I have mo backup so if I lose this connect thats will be the end of my using that particular drug! lol I also always have the thought that I'm not going to party like this forever, at some point I'll be to old to fucking do it or it be worth doing lol and I just wont want to do it anymore. And I'm sure my connect isnt always going to deal either. so I always know that there will be an end at some point. How I view the world most of the time is with a much broader picture than most so I dont "normally" loose focus on whats going on around me because my mind is zero'd in on 1 thing. You know how you stare at a certain spot on a picture, after a little while the rest of the picture disappears except the spot you're focused on? Thats your brain shutting off what you dont need to see and your brain does the exact same thing anytime you focus your thought on one thing for a long time, you lose site of life LOL Thats what happens When jones on something and realize 3 hours went by and you only cleaned 3 keys on your keyboard lol Your brain shut out the world around you. While I've been there done that I'm self aware enough that even if I'm jonsin on something, I still know whats going on, whats around me, what time it is, aware whats going on with people I'm with etc You wont ever find me cleaning my keyboard for 3 hours. Point being I can be high as fuck, all into the moment and still meet you at the time we agreed on.

I have always approached the scoring of drugs with the same mindset, which was created over 35 yrs of getting drugs. Even back in my weed days I was the same way. So maybe because I've always had this approach and that I think the way that I do that it makes it easier for me to deal with what we're talking about. But no matter what at the end of the day you can take all this shit we've both said and toss it, because it all comes down to one thing and that is "you are only as good as your word". Its what makes you who you are. I live be that saying and my word is always gold, its the most important thing to me, about me as a person. And because of that I expect the same from the people I interact with. And I present it in a way that it calls them on their integrity without me having to say anything. They KNOW I will be on time, every time, so I'm always good on my word, yours not that good? Raised the bar :) I have done all the things, waited here, chased it here, got ripped off by the friend getting it for me, been jumped (didnt end well for them) So I have done all these things, the difference is, I dont continue to do them :)
Maybe a reason it works for me is how I view and approach it so i end up with people that are a fit for me. Life is what you make it.

Oh and I have also been a dealer btw :) I used to sell weed back in the day when in an apt and I had a City Police officer(female cop) that lived NEXT DOOR. I sold weed for 3 years like that. She never had a clue, how I know is when I moved out, I had stopped sellng by then but i asked her is she never noticed anything, she said nope, with the exception she could smell it when we toked up. I told her that I'd been selling and about how much a week and she didnt believe me. :)
So I got on a roll with a thought and not sure I ended up where I wanted to when I started, hopefully it made sense to someone LOL8o

Ya just gotta e smarter than the average bear :)
 
Carl Landrover said:
You weren't the only one to quote me, and also I don't see how my post "completely missed your point". You also added in details that I didn't mention. In 3 years, going almost daily for 2.5, I think I waited more than 30 minutes maybe 5-10 times. I don't think 5-10 out of 850 is that bad. I never waited more than an hour, and I certainly wouldn't wait 4 hours for someone to come through.

Yes, I am sure there are times that he could have gotten to me a little quicker, but there are times that he was just not ready yet. Sometimes he was waiting for his supplier to come through or he was going to pick up from his supplier. Sometimes he has to wait a few to make sure it's all clear, which is something I appreciate from a safety standpoint. I doubt he'd be serving other people and would keep me waiting on the back burner. He knows I wait pretty close to him and I am meeting him in his building complex, so it would be easier just to meet up with me and get it over with. Since he's at his home the deal takes the amount of time that it takes to walk from his front door to my car.

If I ended up waiting 20-30 minutes every time then that would be a different story, and I would just use him as a backup. If you call someone every day for a year I doubt they'll be able to punctually meet up with you every single time. This is a drug dealer we're talking about. It's not just my guy, but as a whole drug dealers aren't known for their punctuality.


It can also be difficult to come across another dealer that doesn't do sketchy deals, that I trust won't rip me off, that has good dope, and is available in the morning. I like the fact that I can call him at 9am and meet up then. To have another dealer that satisfies all those wants takes time and money to develop that trusting relationship.
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BTW when I talk about being late, if he needs to re up first or has things to do first that may effect his schedule I dont arrange a meet, those things can take 5 minutes or all day. I say you call me after you've seen your dealer and/or done the things you need to do. in other words call me when your shit is done and you're ready to meet I'll wait for any and all of that, just dont tell me 20 minutes and make me sit in a parking lot for an hour.
I'm not talking 10-20-30 minutes of wait I' mean way past that and its a common occurrence. Everyone will be late once in a while, shit happens, I just mean the 1-2-3 hours of waiting after he says jump :)
 
I was reading the posts about parking lots.

The smartest thing to do would to be to wait one place, check the scenery (scan for cops), and then change the location at the last minute. Let the dealer choose the spot so they do not feel set up.

Read a fucking newspaper or something if you are waiting around.

Anyone who has to call their supplier is probably getting the pills on front once they know you are about to pay them. That has sketchy bullshit written all over it. That person is most likely a junkie.

As far as neighbors, get to know them if they are out and about. Make sure they won't drop dime one way or another.

Selling out business's usually always leads to people getting caught and undercover opps. Everyone brags about their bodega-like hookup for some stupid reason. Every business that pumped dope out their store for a prolonged period of time got busted.

I suppose the smartest people know how to do a good handshake and constantly rotate spots and only talk about shit in person as far as to the next order. It is really dumb to say anything on the phone that is remotely suspicious, so maybe kind of have a system so you already negotiated before so your conversation does not really involve going anywhere or doing anything even if that is exactly what you are talking about. I suppose that takes an IQ over 100 and a bit of trust.

I personally prefer someone who insists you hang out a bit instead of being in and out. Like one dude said "It has to look like we are friends and shit so you gonna have to hang out for 15 minutes." I suppose it was either hot or he just wanted to see the reaction. Either way dude was fucking legit.

Also some people race home after copping something heavy they waited hours for. A car full of groceries will make things a bit less suspicious. If you act suspect you could easily get pulled. Why not run some errands while copping?

Also have you fucking cover story down in case you get a random traffic stop and don't speed.

Cops usually size you up in 30 seconds or less as to whether you have anything on you. For fucks sake don't stare at the cop in the lane next to you or jerk the wheel if you got a cop behind you.

Don't get paranoid unless it is obvious you got set up, in that case I would personally make sure there was nothing to find.

If it feels fucking sketchy even if you have known someone ten years, it probably is fucking sketchy. People can turn on you quick if they are had up for cash so if their demeanor has changed I would think something is up. Also if it sounds to good to be true, it most definitely is.

That being said you can never really trust a junkie or anyone for that matter. Colatoral and Leverage are good things to have if you put your money out there.

Doctors visits can be a pain in the ass but sometimes you can find a physician that has trouble saying no. They can treat you for every health problem there is.
 
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dopemaster said:
Also have you fucking cover story down in case you get a random traffic stop and don't speed.

Cops usually size you up in 30 seconds or less as to whether you have anything on you. For fucks sake don't stare at the cop in the lane next to you or jerk the wheel if you got a cop behind you.
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all very good things to keep in mind... but cops dont usually size you up in 30 secs the ALWAYS size you up in less then that.... thats why it always helps to not be dressed like a "junkie", i always like to wear a nice button up and look like im going to or comming from class... and it always helps to have a big smile a corny joke to tell em, "where are you going in such a hurry?" "ooo i gota pick the ol lady up from work... dont want her cracking the whip on me to hard tonite."
and being white has never hurt, i guess unless in larger cities where you would be considered to be in the "wrong" part of town, but thankful i dont have to worry about that... also im not sure if this applys to every state but i know in WVA cops can not follow you for more then three turns... one time i was waitin on my dude to run out and when i saw him i started driving up the street and there was an SUV like two blocks behind me, and i stopped in the middle of the road and he hopped in and the car was getting close enough to see it was a cop, so i took an immediate left went one block took a right went another block and took another right and the cop followed me then i took another left two blocks up and he had to keep driving, then i just parked and walked to the store for a few lil bit... but it looked dumb as hell cause i could have easily just wnt straight and made a right then left and been where i ended up.... that was just one time, its worked for me on a few other occassions also
 
So here's what I'm breathing in my ozone u zones. I have never once been out of my normal
Chemicals in 9 years until one week ago. I'm waiting for new scripts from doctor who is in
 
i simply dont count on em till they are at your door, if you say and hour dont get mad if i have gotton elsewere after 2...

i dont give a shit... its there own fault, offcourse i text em when i have gotten elsewere but, goddamn all daelers do that from time to time,,, just be honost
 
Fucking around on bluelight waiting for the mailman with a big ass bag of kratom.

Could be worse i guess :p
 
Leegrow said:
I hate that inevitable feeling of being out of drugs and money :\
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Yess, it's not a very good time, I'm just glad I've managed to get my use back down to a point of not having bad WD's, just annoying cravings which is tolerable.
It's hard to have a steady habit when you're broke all the time and have morals to not sell everything you've got, I guess that's a good thing though. :P
 
Papaverium said:
Yess, it's not a very good time, I'm just glad I've managed to get my use back down to a point of not having bad WD's, just annoying cravings which is tolerable.
It's hard to have a steady habit when you're broke all the time and have morals to not sell everything you've got, I guess that's a good thing though. :P
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yea no kidding... the only half way respectable thing one can do is hustle shit and then you end up with some faggot that will set you up so they dont get a yr or two of probation and you can get a year or two in prison...
 
the diamorphine scene in my neck of the woods is non existent, so I have to order across London. Next day delivery, but god, it feels like a week.
most of my waiting/dancing is behind the letter-box, peering through it like the malignant thing that i am for the postman to bring me some good news; or a letter edged in black - whichever you prefer.
 
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