Wait and see
I can surprise even myself
With the lengths I go to.
The self destruct button
Lies too close to my hand
If I leave now, it will be too late.
You will see me
Not as the strong and determined
But as the weak and feable.
Wait and see
It could happen
I have left this too late again
Will I ever get it right?
In the end it doesn't matter
You'll understand how
I took the easy way out
But can I be so accepting of it?
The empty pages waiting for words
Haunt my mind as I
Wade through scribbled notes
Reminders of what I think they want
But not knowing makes it hard
You can only do so much in the end
Eventually you just have to give in
To that primal force which urges you
To lie and rest for just a moment.
Well if I take that moment now
I may never have another to do this.
So I will fight that force
And try to regain contoll of my thoughts.
In the end
As much as I freak out every time this happens
It's never turned out as bad
Mostly I've done it well
And I can rest with a smile on my face
Knowing I can do better...
Laughing it off with
"I didn't even try that hard"
Sometimes I scare myself with
My calculations of what could be
But am I scared to enter the what could be
Or that my calculations are wrong?
And I couldn't be?
Wait and see
One day I'll get it right
And then we'll all know.
I might even surprise me
And shake this tide of
Just enough to get me through
Wait and see
I'll be strong
I won't leave now
I will finish what I've begun
Just like you told me
But it won't be for you
Wait and see
I'll do it just for me.
*~*
Just had to ramble a bit. I'm having a stress attack! ARGH! Seriously tho. Procrastination and essays (yes ok, there's more than one!) due in 10 hrs when it's time to sleep = a less than desireable all niter. Funny how sitting on your arse typing and reading can be harder than dancing all night no? Ok ok, I'm going to stop rambling and go write!
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if you found out you were dreaming, would you want to wake up?
Please don't interrupt me. That last sentence took a lot of effort to think of and now I have to think of another one.
I can surprise even myself
With the lengths I go to.
The self destruct button
Lies too close to my hand
If I leave now, it will be too late.
You will see me
Not as the strong and determined
But as the weak and feable.
Wait and see
It could happen
I have left this too late again
Will I ever get it right?
In the end it doesn't matter
You'll understand how
I took the easy way out
But can I be so accepting of it?
The empty pages waiting for words
Haunt my mind as I
Wade through scribbled notes
Reminders of what I think they want
But not knowing makes it hard
You can only do so much in the end
Eventually you just have to give in
To that primal force which urges you
To lie and rest for just a moment.
Well if I take that moment now
I may never have another to do this.
So I will fight that force
And try to regain contoll of my thoughts.
In the end
As much as I freak out every time this happens
It's never turned out as bad
Mostly I've done it well
And I can rest with a smile on my face
Knowing I can do better...
Laughing it off with
"I didn't even try that hard"
Sometimes I scare myself with
My calculations of what could be
But am I scared to enter the what could be
Or that my calculations are wrong?
And I couldn't be?
Wait and see
One day I'll get it right
And then we'll all know.
I might even surprise me
And shake this tide of
Just enough to get me through
Wait and see
I'll be strong
I won't leave now
I will finish what I've begun
Just like you told me
But it won't be for you
Wait and see
I'll do it just for me.
*~*
Just had to ramble a bit. I'm having a stress attack! ARGH! Seriously tho. Procrastination and essays (yes ok, there's more than one!) due in 10 hrs when it's time to sleep = a less than desireable all niter. Funny how sitting on your arse typing and reading can be harder than dancing all night no? Ok ok, I'm going to stop rambling and go write!
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if you found out you were dreaming, would you want to wake up?
Please don't interrupt me. That last sentence took a lot of effort to think of and now I have to think of another one.
