Hi, so before I start off, I need to warn whoever reads this that I'm aware that taking another person's prescription is illegal and wrong. It happens. Kid's start binge drinking by the time they're 13, so if you want to tell me what I did is wrong-I don't need to hear it.
My entire life I have struggled with a lot of things. My emotions, thoughts, stress, and anxiety. I don't want to go in depth on what I have dealt with the past several years of my life, but it has definitely been one crazy roller coaster. For the sake of me asking for advice, I will tell everyone a few things about me. I am a 16 year old girl, I weigh 124lbs, I'm 5'11 1/2 and I suffer from an eating disorder.
After having a panic attack at school after I consumed two Tylenol Extra Strength tablets, I decided that I could no longer live my life this way. I have really bad anxiety, everything literally sets me off, I get anxious about the smallest things, like if something is out of place I will freak out, if I have too much work and I don't know where to start I'll get anxious and not do it all together which only makes me freak out more resulting in my cram sessions availing to nothing. My anxiety has escalated into playing a major factor in my eating disorder, so yesterday I decided to visit my doctor and get a prescription.
My doctor knows about my struggle's, he knows about what's happened in my family, know's everything about my eating disorder, and know how I feel on a psychiatric level. However, I really wanted to be prescribed ADHD medication. Although I do not think I have full blown ADHD, I do exhibit several symptoms. Some which are actually less known than others. Because my anxiety and on/off depression is actually a serious issue, I expressed my concerns to my doctor and he prescribed me Lorazepam and Cipralex for my anxiety/minor depression. He told me he thinks my anxiety and depression might be the cause of my lack of concentration and motivation to finish work or accomplish tasks (which are the common symptoms associated with ADHD). I don't know much about drugs, to be honest, it doesn't interest me very much, but I do care what I put in my body. A lot of my friend's abuse Ritalin, Adderall, and Vyvanse like most young adults do, you would be naive not to know that this is true. I have never joined the bandwagon because I have not yet been medically diagnosed and I've always feared doing drugs because of my anxiety to begin with. My doctor told me that if the Lorazepam and Cirpalex didn't help after a month and a half time, he would look into putting me on some ADHD medication and he mentioned Vyvanse.
When I got home, I got into a fight with my mom. Because of this, I left my house for a coffee with my friend. This is a girl who does Vyvanse recreationally and is always either prescribed drugs or doing some sort of drug, but I do not look at her differently because of that. Anyway, she told me to take a Lorazepam because I was freaking out-and because my doctor prescribed a low dosage (0.5mg) I agreed. This was at 5pm. Lorazepam made me incredibly sleepy so she told me I should try doing some Vyvanse because I had a huge test the next day. I took the Vyvanse at 6pm. I know I did it on a whim and not in the best mind set, but I honestly wanted to try and see what it was like. Plus I thought that since Lorazepam is an anti-anxiety medication it could help cancel out some of the negative side effects associated with Vyvanse. Anyway, I took 50mg at 6pm, and boy was that not the best thing to do. I had eaten my first "big" meal (under 500 calories) an hour prior, and I was pretty mellowed out. After an hour of waiting, by 7pm I was on a buzz. I have tried drugs recreationally before but never enjoyed it (by this I mean illegal drugs) because I hate the feeling of lack of control. The most I do now is drink, and even that is always at a controlled amount. From 8pm-9pm I felt amazing. I was so focused, so unbelievably into my school work and all my attention was undivided just focused on completing page upon page of notes. It was amazing, I did not feel "euphoria" just for once, I felt in control of my mind. When I am trying to do homework without any mind-altering medication, my attention drifts and I can daydream and find any excuse to distract myself. Vyvanse made me actually want to study, I had this thirst to read and read. I felt so motivated and I was very happy that I had done it. I didn't feel anxiety or any bad side effects. This lasted for 3 hours.
Around 10pm to 12am, I went back home and had a very long conversation with my dad. It almost felt like I was high because I was crying and opening up to him and talking about the universe (my father is generally a philosophical guy so these kinds of conversations are common, I just never participate) in the kitchen of our home. When he finally went to bed I called up my friend (the one who gave me the pills) and stayed on the phone with her for 2 hours. She was having problems with her boyfriend and was crying to me, so I called her boyfriend and talked to both of them. I just felt on a whole different level, everything I said sounded clear and in my head I wasn't stuttering or noticing the small mental ticks that I usually do. After the conversation ended at around 3am, I was drained emotionally but not tired enough to sleep. Unfortunately I lost my concentration on schoolwork so I watched some TV and tidied up my room. This was roughly 7-8 into the experience.
At 2am was when I began to notice the intense nausea, bowel movements, and headache as well as dry mouth and thirst and weakness. I felt crummy so I messaged my friend who actually is prescribed Vyvanse for her ADHD and she told me it's common when first starting a new medication and I took a higher dosage later on in the day. I agreed and took a small dosage of Lorazepam again to calm my nerves. By 5:30am I was asleep and I woke up approximately 3 hours later, refreshed but still feeling somewhat queasy.
It's now 3:42pm on the same day that I woke up (Tuesday), I am somewhat jittery, a bit anxious because I am trying to forget how much work I need to do, dizzy, and I feel queasy as well as loss of an appetite. I am quite used to not feeling hungry because of my eating disorder, but the queasiness is very annoying. I wanted to take some Gravol but I'm unsure how much that could help and whatnot.
I talked to my friends who basically said it was probably too much of a high dosage for me. Because my doctor ALREADY believes I have ADHD, I don't want people to say I self-medicated when I don't have a problem. I DO have a problem, and my doctor as well as myself agree that I need ADHD medication, I was just hoping someone could tell me what they think? If these side effects are normal for a first user, especially in my scenario, with the dosage that I ingested.
I would greatly appreciate any response, and once again, I wanted to say I know it's wrong to take other people's prescriptions. I wanted to try it because I knew I would be doing it in the future anyway. If people are going to say I shouldn't have done it, I'd rather not hear it. You can't change the past and I realize I probably should have acted with more responsibility. Thanks.
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My entire life I have struggled with a lot of things. My emotions, thoughts, stress, and anxiety. I don't want to go in depth on what I have dealt with the past several years of my life, but it has definitely been one crazy roller coaster. For the sake of me asking for advice, I will tell everyone a few things about me. I am a 16 year old girl, I weigh 124lbs, I'm 5'11 1/2 and I suffer from an eating disorder.
After having a panic attack at school after I consumed two Tylenol Extra Strength tablets, I decided that I could no longer live my life this way. I have really bad anxiety, everything literally sets me off, I get anxious about the smallest things, like if something is out of place I will freak out, if I have too much work and I don't know where to start I'll get anxious and not do it all together which only makes me freak out more resulting in my cram sessions availing to nothing. My anxiety has escalated into playing a major factor in my eating disorder, so yesterday I decided to visit my doctor and get a prescription.
My doctor knows about my struggle's, he knows about what's happened in my family, know's everything about my eating disorder, and know how I feel on a psychiatric level. However, I really wanted to be prescribed ADHD medication. Although I do not think I have full blown ADHD, I do exhibit several symptoms. Some which are actually less known than others. Because my anxiety and on/off depression is actually a serious issue, I expressed my concerns to my doctor and he prescribed me Lorazepam and Cipralex for my anxiety/minor depression. He told me he thinks my anxiety and depression might be the cause of my lack of concentration and motivation to finish work or accomplish tasks (which are the common symptoms associated with ADHD). I don't know much about drugs, to be honest, it doesn't interest me very much, but I do care what I put in my body. A lot of my friend's abuse Ritalin, Adderall, and Vyvanse like most young adults do, you would be naive not to know that this is true. I have never joined the bandwagon because I have not yet been medically diagnosed and I've always feared doing drugs because of my anxiety to begin with. My doctor told me that if the Lorazepam and Cirpalex didn't help after a month and a half time, he would look into putting me on some ADHD medication and he mentioned Vyvanse.
When I got home, I got into a fight with my mom. Because of this, I left my house for a coffee with my friend. This is a girl who does Vyvanse recreationally and is always either prescribed drugs or doing some sort of drug, but I do not look at her differently because of that. Anyway, she told me to take a Lorazepam because I was freaking out-and because my doctor prescribed a low dosage (0.5mg) I agreed. This was at 5pm. Lorazepam made me incredibly sleepy so she told me I should try doing some Vyvanse because I had a huge test the next day. I took the Vyvanse at 6pm. I know I did it on a whim and not in the best mind set, but I honestly wanted to try and see what it was like. Plus I thought that since Lorazepam is an anti-anxiety medication it could help cancel out some of the negative side effects associated with Vyvanse. Anyway, I took 50mg at 6pm, and boy was that not the best thing to do. I had eaten my first "big" meal (under 500 calories) an hour prior, and I was pretty mellowed out. After an hour of waiting, by 7pm I was on a buzz. I have tried drugs recreationally before but never enjoyed it (by this I mean illegal drugs) because I hate the feeling of lack of control. The most I do now is drink, and even that is always at a controlled amount. From 8pm-9pm I felt amazing. I was so focused, so unbelievably into my school work and all my attention was undivided just focused on completing page upon page of notes. It was amazing, I did not feel "euphoria" just for once, I felt in control of my mind. When I am trying to do homework without any mind-altering medication, my attention drifts and I can daydream and find any excuse to distract myself. Vyvanse made me actually want to study, I had this thirst to read and read. I felt so motivated and I was very happy that I had done it. I didn't feel anxiety or any bad side effects. This lasted for 3 hours.
Around 10pm to 12am, I went back home and had a very long conversation with my dad. It almost felt like I was high because I was crying and opening up to him and talking about the universe (my father is generally a philosophical guy so these kinds of conversations are common, I just never participate) in the kitchen of our home. When he finally went to bed I called up my friend (the one who gave me the pills) and stayed on the phone with her for 2 hours. She was having problems with her boyfriend and was crying to me, so I called her boyfriend and talked to both of them. I just felt on a whole different level, everything I said sounded clear and in my head I wasn't stuttering or noticing the small mental ticks that I usually do. After the conversation ended at around 3am, I was drained emotionally but not tired enough to sleep. Unfortunately I lost my concentration on schoolwork so I watched some TV and tidied up my room. This was roughly 7-8 into the experience.
At 2am was when I began to notice the intense nausea, bowel movements, and headache as well as dry mouth and thirst and weakness. I felt crummy so I messaged my friend who actually is prescribed Vyvanse for her ADHD and she told me it's common when first starting a new medication and I took a higher dosage later on in the day. I agreed and took a small dosage of Lorazepam again to calm my nerves. By 5:30am I was asleep and I woke up approximately 3 hours later, refreshed but still feeling somewhat queasy.
It's now 3:42pm on the same day that I woke up (Tuesday), I am somewhat jittery, a bit anxious because I am trying to forget how much work I need to do, dizzy, and I feel queasy as well as loss of an appetite. I am quite used to not feeling hungry because of my eating disorder, but the queasiness is very annoying. I wanted to take some Gravol but I'm unsure how much that could help and whatnot.
I talked to my friends who basically said it was probably too much of a high dosage for me. Because my doctor ALREADY believes I have ADHD, I don't want people to say I self-medicated when I don't have a problem. I DO have a problem, and my doctor as well as myself agree that I need ADHD medication, I was just hoping someone could tell me what they think? If these side effects are normal for a first user, especially in my scenario, with the dosage that I ingested.
I would greatly appreciate any response, and once again, I wanted to say I know it's wrong to take other people's prescriptions. I wanted to try it because I knew I would be doing it in the future anyway. If people are going to say I shouldn't have done it, I'd rather not hear it. You can't change the past and I realize I probably should have acted with more responsibility. Thanks.
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