Mental Health Violent urges

[hellboundkels]

Since before I started abusing drugs even, I would randomly have a burst of intense desire to hurt someone in my vicinity. My hand might even twitch as it happens.
For example, if I'm holding a pair of scissors for an ordinary reason, my best friend could be sitting next to me talking normally and all of a sudden my hand cocks back with the shears pointed at her but quickly recede and thinking wtf is wrong with me...
There have been other incidents, some more extreme and some less.

 

[Ligaturd]

It's an outburst that you don't seem to be able to control at first but you stop yourself once you realize what's happening. Most people experience disturbing thoughts out of the blue and most people don't act on these impulses but we are all taken aback by them. Maybe try to identify where it comes from, what brings it on and what you can do mentally to pacify that impulse, to prevent it from happening? I personally am currently re-evaluating my life, identifying negative bahavioral tendencies and looking back at events that have happened in the past during my developmental years that have formed these behavioral tendencies. Why I struggle the way that I do. Trying to find resolution surrounding these things and sort of rebuild myself... Not sure if that makes sense for your situation but it's just what is helping me.

 

[PriestTheyCalledHim]

Seek psychological help. Seriously.

 

[Moreaux]

Seek psychological help. Seriously.

^this. Please see someone. This is different then intrusive negative thoughts. You can seriously injure or kill somebody. You need to see a professional. Good luck!