had my surgery last monday and everything went fine. i was wrapped up in tight bandages with 2 drains coming out which were annoying as FUCK. had to be emptied 3 times a day and were gross to look at. plus they made it so i couldn't wear shirts cos they hung off of me, and were painful. after the surgery i threw up 3 times. i have never been in more pain than throwing up right after having major surgery on my chest, which is put under a lot of pressure when you puke. fucking awful. i was miserable all week.
today i got the drains out though, and got to look at my chest for the first time for a few minutes before the bandages were put back on. it looks great! i mean, i'm still all bruised and the incisions still look gross and bloody, but i can tell that in a few weeks it's gonna look awesome. i'm really fucking pumped. so the bandages are back on now, but in 48 hours i can take them off long enough to shower!! which is great, i miss showering very much. then next tuesday i go and get the stitches out, and then i'll be allowed to raise my arms above my head, so i can start wearing t-shirts again, and just have more mobility in general.
i'm so pumped. this is definitely the greatest thing that i've ever done. i already feel way better. but then again, i did just take 3 vicodins. i got a script for 40 of them and had a few left over. since i'm still not allowed to drive and still can't really do much, i figured why not just take a few of em and just feel nice? feels mad nice, it's quite easy to see how people get addicted to opiates. i'm tempted to take more already and i only took those 3 like 45 mins ago.
i'm not going to get addicted though. i had been taking one every 4 hours for a week, just to keep the pain away, and i didn't shit basically at all the whole time. today i didn't take one in the morning and drank 2 coffees and holy shit. literally. i never wanna go through that again.
oh well i guess this is kinda pointless, just wanted to update cos the last time i updated my blog i was pissed off but now i am HAPPY.
today i got the drains out though, and got to look at my chest for the first time for a few minutes before the bandages were put back on. it looks great! i mean, i'm still all bruised and the incisions still look gross and bloody, but i can tell that in a few weeks it's gonna look awesome. i'm really fucking pumped. so the bandages are back on now, but in 48 hours i can take them off long enough to shower!! which is great, i miss showering very much. then next tuesday i go and get the stitches out, and then i'll be allowed to raise my arms above my head, so i can start wearing t-shirts again, and just have more mobility in general.
i'm so pumped. this is definitely the greatest thing that i've ever done. i already feel way better. but then again, i did just take 3 vicodins. i got a script for 40 of them and had a few left over. since i'm still not allowed to drive and still can't really do much, i figured why not just take a few of em and just feel nice? feels mad nice, it's quite easy to see how people get addicted to opiates. i'm tempted to take more already and i only took those 3 like 45 mins ago.
i'm not going to get addicted though. i had been taking one every 4 hours for a week, just to keep the pain away, and i didn't shit basically at all the whole time. today i didn't take one in the morning and drank 2 coffees and holy shit. literally. i never wanna go through that again.
oh well i guess this is kinda pointless, just wanted to update cos the last time i updated my blog i was pissed off but now i am HAPPY.