Intenselife
Bluelighter
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As a person who already suffers with depression and have since I was 12 (I'm 22 now) I am desperate in hopes of hearing someone that may have a trick/tips in how to quickly raise and maintain dopamine levels. I have been taking vyvanse a few times a week even though I am prescribed to it once a day, I can't handle the comedown and how I feel when it wears off. I was prescribed adderall twice a day and that was the same reason I only took that a few times a week, was because I could not tolerate the side effects when it wears off (which was way worse then Vyvanse).
Despite of the fact that I am prescribed klonopin that I take daily twice a day never more, it doesn't help with the crash as much as it would if I wasn't prescribed to it daily. Back in the days I would count my blessings if I was lucky enough to obtain a benzo, weed, or anything else when recreationally taking amphetamines. Now I have so much that I do to alleviate the comedown and am afraid their is not much other options that are healthy left. The last time I took the vyvanse was over 3 days ago, and unfortunately this time I never came back to normality (or my normality since I am depressed usually not "normal"). I was able to shockingly fall asleep for 5-6 hours which normally I don't get none the preceding day and feel kinda out of it until I fall asleep that next night and wake up the next day back to my typical state of being. However in the past few days I haven't woke up feeling how I normally do. As many side effects because of my depression, I already have a hard time functioning but usually can get by the day with some weed without feeling tooo horrid.
For the first time ever, I have been getting up with severe cravings for vyvanse (one of the least drugs I thought id have this problem too) Because when I take it those few times a week I feel like most normal people do. I used to think I was getting some wild euphoria etc etc but then realized all it does is block a lot of negative thoughts, induces positivity, and allows me to be able to watch tv or get on the internet which I have a hard time doing in my depressed state. It has gotten so bad now that for the past few days, I would smoke and I find myself just sitting their trying to force myself to text some friends, get on the computer and resume whatever I typically do but haven't been able to! I sit their for hours like zombie being plagued with no motivation and all my worries.
I don't know how much lack of dopamine is in my brain for me to feel that horrible even though I do so much when coming down which includes:
-Green tea (helps a little)
-Klonopin (Prevents withdrawal, slows down heart rate thats about it)
-Omega 3 (I guess its good for you, and also gets me higher off weed)
-Magnesium (Good for my bones, and initially reduced anxiety as well)
-Eating (Of course like everyone else I don't have any appetite or thirst on amphetamines, but I have mastered at forcefully eating small meals to keep me from feeling worse or sick.
-Exercise (Do i need to go over the thousand benefits that exercise provides, and is suppose to steadily increase dopamine supply reduces anxiety and depression, however for me it does reduce the anxiety and irritability but depression still persists)
---I Can't think of anything else to do in my current control to further reduce the comedown which I admit is soooo mild compared to some REAL HELL COMEDOWNS that ive had in the past. But despite of it being so much more managable etc, I still can't help but feel depressed even worse then I already normally do. I even do the things I mentioned daily not just when coming down, I just don't know what is wrong with me. I have tried several SSRI's long before I even tried drugs, and I never reacted well with them. Can anyone help??? My nasty comedown from feeling normal to crazy (which I probably am even though others can't tell) is going to start soon and before I lose complete motivation/desire to get back on here for days, I would love a reply that will be very helpful to me.
---I also have even tried yoga poses for stress when coming down, music for dopamine, and even deep breathing exercises! Theirs nothing left... Is their really something wrong in my brain?
"
Despite of the fact that I am prescribed klonopin that I take daily twice a day never more, it doesn't help with the crash as much as it would if I wasn't prescribed to it daily. Back in the days I would count my blessings if I was lucky enough to obtain a benzo, weed, or anything else when recreationally taking amphetamines. Now I have so much that I do to alleviate the comedown and am afraid their is not much other options that are healthy left. The last time I took the vyvanse was over 3 days ago, and unfortunately this time I never came back to normality (or my normality since I am depressed usually not "normal"). I was able to shockingly fall asleep for 5-6 hours which normally I don't get none the preceding day and feel kinda out of it until I fall asleep that next night and wake up the next day back to my typical state of being. However in the past few days I haven't woke up feeling how I normally do. As many side effects because of my depression, I already have a hard time functioning but usually can get by the day with some weed without feeling tooo horrid.
For the first time ever, I have been getting up with severe cravings for vyvanse (one of the least drugs I thought id have this problem too) Because when I take it those few times a week I feel like most normal people do. I used to think I was getting some wild euphoria etc etc but then realized all it does is block a lot of negative thoughts, induces positivity, and allows me to be able to watch tv or get on the internet which I have a hard time doing in my depressed state. It has gotten so bad now that for the past few days, I would smoke and I find myself just sitting their trying to force myself to text some friends, get on the computer and resume whatever I typically do but haven't been able to! I sit their for hours like zombie being plagued with no motivation and all my worries.
I don't know how much lack of dopamine is in my brain for me to feel that horrible even though I do so much when coming down which includes:
-Green tea (helps a little)
-Klonopin (Prevents withdrawal, slows down heart rate thats about it)
-Omega 3 (I guess its good for you, and also gets me higher off weed)
-Magnesium (Good for my bones, and initially reduced anxiety as well)
-Eating (Of course like everyone else I don't have any appetite or thirst on amphetamines, but I have mastered at forcefully eating small meals to keep me from feeling worse or sick.
-Exercise (Do i need to go over the thousand benefits that exercise provides, and is suppose to steadily increase dopamine supply reduces anxiety and depression, however for me it does reduce the anxiety and irritability but depression still persists)
---I Can't think of anything else to do in my current control to further reduce the comedown which I admit is soooo mild compared to some REAL HELL COMEDOWNS that ive had in the past. But despite of it being so much more managable etc, I still can't help but feel depressed even worse then I already normally do. I even do the things I mentioned daily not just when coming down, I just don't know what is wrong with me. I have tried several SSRI's long before I even tried drugs, and I never reacted well with them. Can anyone help??? My nasty comedown from feeling normal to crazy (which I probably am even though others can't tell) is going to start soon and before I lose complete motivation/desire to get back on here for days, I would love a reply that will be very helpful to me.
---I also have even tried yoga poses for stress when coming down, music for dopamine, and even deep breathing exercises! Theirs nothing left... Is their really something wrong in my brain?
"

