okay, so I'm deep in my addiction and want help. Tried to make an appointment with a sub doc, and after us calling back and forth several times(I work two jobs, seven days a week) the motherfucker told me that he didn't want to see me because I want to dictate my recovery. He actually told me that I had the NERVE to call and ask for help, that because I cant get the time needed off of work that my support system sucks, that I really don't want help and to find a doctor that I could manipulate, that he wasn't the one. The only thing I asked for was being able to come in on Saturdays only...I understand that you have to be willing to do whatever necessary but I CANNOT be in a clinic for three or four hours a day during the week. I HAVE TO WORK.....especially to cover the expense of his visit. I don't WANT my boss to know that I'm going through this, FUCK. I understand that you need to take the medicine there and they need to see how you react, I understand that you have to follow procedure, I'm not fighting that. All I asked for was to do it on Saturdays because that's when I waitress and I can make up a lame excuse to get out of work on that day.
*deep breath* okay....god that's been eating at me since yesterday. Its a big area, I'll find a doctor that can work with me on Saturdays. No big deal....