KozzieButt
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The only reason that I am now able to veiw things obectively is because of a revelation I had on crack.
I realized that there is no right and wrong, but that said, in order to really have a life that we want we need to make decisions to benefit ourselves long term.
Right now I am able to recognize this because of said revelation, but at the same time I am fatigued, disjointed and somewhat out of it from the other day when I smoked crack.
I have an assaignment that is due in a couple of days and and the way that my brain is working now is making it impossible to actually hook in and concentrate on my studies.
I have noticed that there are very many people here who are using drugs intelligently, and that is why I have chosen this forum to post this.
Sorry if this is a bit disjointed as I am kinda fucked atm but I do have a point.
My revelation on crack was that aside from the obvious chemical boost to make me feel great it was the absense of fear that really allowed me to experience my buzz fully. I have been prone to anxiety and this has affected my quality of life.
I realized that at base, we are all good. We are pure consciousness existing in a limiting reality. It is our ego or our fears that limit us. For ex fear that we are not good enough, this happens when we get out of touch with concious objective reality which is always beautiful, and start to believe our ego's stories, which are based in fear generally.
However, it is important to remeber that we need conditions in order to exist properly in this world.
For ex. The last time I did crack I found myself in a great place I decided to go outside and go for a walk. I felt absolutley free to do whatever the fuck I wanted. However, I had a child in my care (I know this sounds terrible but he wa not in any danger, this I am sure of) So I was limited as to how far I could venture from the house.
It was the chemical rush allowing me to be so fully conscious that made me feel good. The revelation was a result of being so tuned in.
What I have realized is that while the revelation persists I am so dulled from the comedown that I cannot experience life as fully as I would like.
This has lead me to the conclusion that while crack is neither good or bad, the toll it takes on my body and mind only serves to hinder me in the long run.
The reveltion has changed me and I do not regret my crack use at all. However it has taught me to make decisions that benefit myself in the long run and this would mean to stop smoking crack probably.
i hape this made sense I realize I am unable to express myself fully when my brain is so dull but if this resonates with someone in any way please do leave a comment
Than you
I realized that there is no right and wrong, but that said, in order to really have a life that we want we need to make decisions to benefit ourselves long term.
Right now I am able to recognize this because of said revelation, but at the same time I am fatigued, disjointed and somewhat out of it from the other day when I smoked crack.
I have an assaignment that is due in a couple of days and and the way that my brain is working now is making it impossible to actually hook in and concentrate on my studies.
I have noticed that there are very many people here who are using drugs intelligently, and that is why I have chosen this forum to post this.
Sorry if this is a bit disjointed as I am kinda fucked atm but I do have a point.
My revelation on crack was that aside from the obvious chemical boost to make me feel great it was the absense of fear that really allowed me to experience my buzz fully. I have been prone to anxiety and this has affected my quality of life.
I realized that at base, we are all good. We are pure consciousness existing in a limiting reality. It is our ego or our fears that limit us. For ex fear that we are not good enough, this happens when we get out of touch with concious objective reality which is always beautiful, and start to believe our ego's stories, which are based in fear generally.
However, it is important to remeber that we need conditions in order to exist properly in this world.
For ex. The last time I did crack I found myself in a great place I decided to go outside and go for a walk. I felt absolutley free to do whatever the fuck I wanted. However, I had a child in my care (I know this sounds terrible but he wa not in any danger, this I am sure of) So I was limited as to how far I could venture from the house.
It was the chemical rush allowing me to be so fully conscious that made me feel good. The revelation was a result of being so tuned in.
What I have realized is that while the revelation persists I am so dulled from the comedown that I cannot experience life as fully as I would like.
This has lead me to the conclusion that while crack is neither good or bad, the toll it takes on my body and mind only serves to hinder me in the long run.
The reveltion has changed me and I do not regret my crack use at all. However it has taught me to make decisions that benefit myself in the long run and this would mean to stop smoking crack probably.
i hape this made sense I realize I am unable to express myself fully when my brain is so dull but if this resonates with someone in any way please do leave a comment
Than you
