oh it works.. nice..
but as i tried to post earlier:
damn, i just finished a actually short update, but when i pressed "send" it said that i didnt have the right to post (or something like that).. i restatet the browser and tryed igen, but then my computer freezed... i think its sabotaged my brain
but anyways, i am totally down again now and have been there for a few hours.
when my friend came over at the end of the trip (ive been coming down surprisinglly smooth and ind a acceptable mood) it was still pretty easy to make conversation. but after abouth an hour he asked me to shut up for a second cuz he were watching something on the news. but after a minute or two, when it was over, ive totally lost my focus and urge to talk.. that messed up my mood quit a but because i really had the control of my come-down.. and after a minutes with allmost no words said, he pointed out that i was getting quied... obviously i was aware of that, and a little annoied abouth the unwanted slightly bad mood..
but well.. cant really blame him, he was the one who kickstarted the whole thing, and ive learned so much abouth myself and realized a lot of things.. some totally nonsens, but allso a few wery usefull things..
just too bad that ive slightly lost the urge to write, and allmost totally lost the urge to talk. i was really sure that ive made som changes on my social behavior in a good way.. but i guess you cant win everytime.
still got an awefull lot left, så im pretty happy abouth how the trip turned out in the end..
and i can see that i still write a lot more then i normally do.. (but i must admidt, after a few hours after my internet broke down, i became a little worried about my psyke.. 7 normally filled pages in word, and severel hours of writing my own thougts.. that was a little creepy.. but it gave me the biggest confidence to just keep fucusing for hours so i could not make myself stop...
when i first tried to type this about 2 hours ago, i got really confused and couldt even write in english.. got worried that ive mad myself much more stupid and slow tha usual. but it seems to be better now. (actually better then when sober)
now ill just sit back and relax, and hope som of the more social me keeps following me in the future..
im out. thanks for listening :D
btw. i really dont think that i am gonna post all the sites i wrote in word.. it is just too much to look thrugh
hmm now it say "You do not have permission to perform this action. Please refresh the page and login before trying again"
why is that? (this is a stupid question if i cant send the message