...19 years of ruined valentines days. I'm sick of feeling so much hate towards everyone & everything.
It feels like I'm staring down the barrel of a gun when I'm at this point. I want my fucking face blown off so I don't have to live in this shitty fucking world. No matter what I fucking do I ruin something. Right now I'm on the verge of fucking suicide, nobody would hear me screaming for help....nobody would care.....it's all I fucking deserve. I want to be fucking dead. Love is the biggest load of crap, it doesn't exsist, it's just a strong fucking lust. Nobody stays fucking faithful, men go to strip shows & so do women, they all get hookers, second lovers whatever, it's all the fucking same. Even porn. If you've got someone why the fuck do you need the other things?! I put on weight when I was no longer the girl he was interested in, when he was beating off to porn instead of fucking me. But I don't give a fuck anymore....theres no point to any of this bullshit.
I should just be fucking dead, get it over & done with. I'm gonna cancel my shift tonight & fucking jump off a bridge or something. I have no reason to fucking be here, and nobody would give a fuck if they found me dead, they'd just keep on walking past me.
It feels like I'm staring down the barrel of a gun when I'm at this point. I want my fucking face blown off so I don't have to live in this shitty fucking world. No matter what I fucking do I ruin something. Right now I'm on the verge of fucking suicide, nobody would hear me screaming for help....nobody would care.....it's all I fucking deserve. I want to be fucking dead. Love is the biggest load of crap, it doesn't exsist, it's just a strong fucking lust. Nobody stays fucking faithful, men go to strip shows & so do women, they all get hookers, second lovers whatever, it's all the fucking same. Even porn. If you've got someone why the fuck do you need the other things?! I put on weight when I was no longer the girl he was interested in, when he was beating off to porn instead of fucking me. But I don't give a fuck anymore....theres no point to any of this bullshit.
I should just be fucking dead, get it over & done with. I'm gonna cancel my shift tonight & fucking jump off a bridge or something. I have no reason to fucking be here, and nobody would give a fuck if they found me dead, they'd just keep on walking past me.
