MetaKnightmare
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Jul 11, 2015
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- 12
Let me go ahead and throw this out there. I am by no means telling everyone that what I did will work for everyone. I merely woke up today and wanted to get my story out there, so that maybe it will help just one person do what they thought was impossible, like I have.
Now that that's out of the way, hi everyone. This is my first post on BL. As I said above, I felt I needed to get my story out there, as well as create an anonymous support for myself. I have always wanted to join one of these forums, but just never done it until today.
I will keep my back story short, I had used drugs from about age 16 up. I've tried just about everything there is to try, but one horrible summer I discovered opiates, and worse, I discovered how much I loved opiates. No Need for details, everyone here knows the story. High school kid gets wrapped up in painkillers, grabs hold of his life, nearly kills him multiple times, yada yada yada. I hit my breaking, do or die point 2 years ago. My first major run-in with the law. I caught a break, did everything I was supposed to, and got on Suboxone. And yes, at first I thought it was the miracle drug that many others do. I lived in denial on Suboxone for 2 years, pulling my life back together, trying to escape the inevitable truth that nothing had changed, only that I get my drugs legitimately through a doctor. Then my life changed. My job was moving me 500 miles away. It was an amazing opportunity. I had to take it, and I did. Than I realized that, while everything in my life was changing, I might as well kick the Subs too.
Subs had become a big problem by this point. I wasn't taking them as prescribed anymore. I was abusing them, wiping out nearly my entire script in a couple weeks, and using what little I had to get to my next visit. Then I moved. And it was almost over. I had a matter of days before I was out, and that scared me more than anything in the world. I had tried to get off Subs before, and failed each time. At this point though, I was ready. This time was different. I wasn't doing it because everyone around me was telling me it was time to. This time, I truly wanted out. The catch was, I had absolutely no down time to break through the worst of it. I had a new store location to put together, interviews to do, people to hire. How in the world was I supposed to jump from around 6 mgs Bupe a day while maintaining all of this?
The answer, simply, was Kratom. I tried it first on day 3 without Subs, you know, when it starts to get really bad. I expected nothing, I mean I had been taking large amounts of Sub for 2 years. No way anything would break through that. But it did. I felt it. It didn't make me high, it just made me feel.. Okay. Not terrible. So I kept on a steady diet of Kratom in the morning, and here I am 24 days later, tapering slowly from Kratom and ready and prepared to kick that in a much easier way than cold turkey from Subs ever would have been. And it doesn't scare me.
For the first time in my adult life, I am truly mentally prepared and determined to live substance free. And I am almost there. So to anyone that needs and is ready to break out of the Bupe prison, find some Kratom. USE IT RESPONSIBLY, the stuff is a plant but a powerful one.
I have to cut this a little short because it's almost time to get to work, but if anyone anywhere is where I was/am and would like to discuss, has any questions or experiences with Kratom for withdrawals, please share.
Now that that's out of the way, hi everyone. This is my first post on BL. As I said above, I felt I needed to get my story out there, as well as create an anonymous support for myself. I have always wanted to join one of these forums, but just never done it until today.
I will keep my back story short, I had used drugs from about age 16 up. I've tried just about everything there is to try, but one horrible summer I discovered opiates, and worse, I discovered how much I loved opiates. No Need for details, everyone here knows the story. High school kid gets wrapped up in painkillers, grabs hold of his life, nearly kills him multiple times, yada yada yada. I hit my breaking, do or die point 2 years ago. My first major run-in with the law. I caught a break, did everything I was supposed to, and got on Suboxone. And yes, at first I thought it was the miracle drug that many others do. I lived in denial on Suboxone for 2 years, pulling my life back together, trying to escape the inevitable truth that nothing had changed, only that I get my drugs legitimately through a doctor. Then my life changed. My job was moving me 500 miles away. It was an amazing opportunity. I had to take it, and I did. Than I realized that, while everything in my life was changing, I might as well kick the Subs too.
Subs had become a big problem by this point. I wasn't taking them as prescribed anymore. I was abusing them, wiping out nearly my entire script in a couple weeks, and using what little I had to get to my next visit. Then I moved. And it was almost over. I had a matter of days before I was out, and that scared me more than anything in the world. I had tried to get off Subs before, and failed each time. At this point though, I was ready. This time was different. I wasn't doing it because everyone around me was telling me it was time to. This time, I truly wanted out. The catch was, I had absolutely no down time to break through the worst of it. I had a new store location to put together, interviews to do, people to hire. How in the world was I supposed to jump from around 6 mgs Bupe a day while maintaining all of this?
The answer, simply, was Kratom. I tried it first on day 3 without Subs, you know, when it starts to get really bad. I expected nothing, I mean I had been taking large amounts of Sub for 2 years. No way anything would break through that. But it did. I felt it. It didn't make me high, it just made me feel.. Okay. Not terrible. So I kept on a steady diet of Kratom in the morning, and here I am 24 days later, tapering slowly from Kratom and ready and prepared to kick that in a much easier way than cold turkey from Subs ever would have been. And it doesn't scare me.
For the first time in my adult life, I am truly mentally prepared and determined to live substance free. And I am almost there. So to anyone that needs and is ready to break out of the Bupe prison, find some Kratom. USE IT RESPONSIBLY, the stuff is a plant but a powerful one.
I have to cut this a little short because it's almost time to get to work, but if anyone anywhere is where I was/am and would like to discuss, has any questions or experiences with Kratom for withdrawals, please share.
