DMT saved my life - addiction gone...
Below is my story - I also stopped 2mg's of subs for 7 years
My 2 DMT trips have literally saved my body and soul. I was using meth and ghb daily for 4-5 years - blew several million dollars with online gambling and was in the biggest downward spiral that had a grip almost too tight to even imagine breaking free - was punishing myself for many of things - my mom's suicide as a teen, my divorce, making a ton of money and blowing it in the blink of an eye - owing a friend $1.4m - it was every vice on full throttle and I felt deep in my core I had lost the person I have known for 36 years - they were the definition of dark days
I had been researching constantly on how to stop this vicious cycle but it only added to the grip of the spiral as panic set it in and I would turn to what I knew best to try and alleviate my fear - I mean - what in this world can be scarier than not being able to stop such a destructive spiral?
Well, actually I tried DMT 3 times - the first time I didn't really like it - brought on tremendous anxiety but later on I realized I wasn't taking big enough hits or holding them in long enough
The first real trip I had after taking my 3rd took me on a sensational journey - it started off quite euphoric - waves pulsed through my body and then while I closed my eyes neon letters started swirling and what resembled candy lettered words started dancing and flashing neon - it than transferred to an alien like group looking over me but at this time I realized I was in control of the trip - I enjoyed it much more when I just let go and enjoyed the ride - it was a water slide in electric and neon tubes - it was being part of something better - thoughts flooding through my brain -the place was so euphoric I thought I may prefer this world than the other - any anxiety vanished and I was playful with the fact I could go as deep into the trip as I wanted if I just let things be - I truly couldn't wipe the smile off of my face - when the effects wore off I felt the biggest emotional drain of my life - not in a bad way - like the biggest and hardest cry I have ever had and a reflex kept saying thank you out loud - 9-10x's I must have said thank you thank you thank you
If someone told me this story I would not buy it - however since my trips my impulses and spiral have come to a complete halt - I am calm, collective, not anxious in the least, have no desire for any substance and am truly enjoying the act of things just being ok - I used to live in a world of black or white - if something wasn't great it was terrible and that is not sustainable
I sleep every night, I wake up feeling rested, no desire to gamble or use - I tried both just to see if it was a fluke and I would cave but I honestly had zero interest in gambling any more or taking another hit
I emailed my addiction doctor about my experience and asked him to please let it inspire him to research this drug for treatment of addiction, bipolar, etc
I had tried everything - I lost hope and what I thought was myself along the way - DMT truly changed me entire psyche
I have made peace with the painful emotions of the past and stopped punishing myself for things I had no control over - I am now kind to myself and show patience and compassion
The trip was very real, I was in a parallel universe I didn't want to leave at the time - the universe has become a much bigger place for me and I was able to take away one fitting takeaway
Find the beauty in it - whatever it is - it's life and it's minute at the grand scale - we are here for a short period and that short period gets messy and painful - I feel like a new me, I am at peace - every human should have a chance to hit reset
I just hope that the medical community is able to conceive the idea we still have many unknowns about mental health and should consider any form of assistance regardless of the stigma that comes with the due diligence
QUOTE=Spirit Molecule;13738848]Hi. I've heard some miraculous stories whereby some people have had a DMT experience which has made them not want to take any kind of opiode again. Has anyone on here had a similar experience? I'm really interested in this as I'm finding it very very difficult to taper off my buprenorphine prescription. I'm stable on 2mgs after a failed attempt to come off them about 6 weeks ago. I even got as low as 0.2mgs on alternate days so me and my key worker reckon it was purely down to psychological issues as I was experiencing a lot of negative vibes in my life at the time, including from my GF of 5 years so she's had to go. She didn't have any idea what I was going through. My head was in a good place to finally stop this crutch from my life. I feel like I've had a spiritual awakening but when some people are trying to bring me down they have no place in my life. Luckily I have a very good mate who is on a similar journey as me so we help each other and vape some pot together quite regularly. The pot gives me a solid 6 hours sleep and I think it's a better alternative to using benzos although I am partial to using diazepam now and again if required. The DMT experiences have been beautiful with the geometric shapes and a plethora of spiritual symbols but I've not broken through yet. I'm hoping when I do, it will have a positive profound affect where I won't have any inclination to use opiates on a recreational basis ever again.
Thanks for reading. Peace and infinite, eternal love..[/QUOTE]