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Use of psyches for post relationship thoughts.

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Lunchboxor

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Yeah, I know my title doesnt make sense. What I meant was using psyches to better understand my thought process post relationship.

This relationship is very complicated, and im not going to get into details about it besides the fact we have been seperated for the past month and a half, maybe more. Havent touched a psyche for about two months. Were going to give it another try in a few days, and see how it works out.

My question is, would tripping on acid, maybe some ket, have negative outcome? I understand that the outcome entirely depends on me, and my mood. Its more of a question to those who have experienced psyches post relationships, was your expierence good, or bad?

Not looking for relationship help, but I can also see that if my stress and anxiety take over, then it wont be a fun trip. But if my hope takes over, it could be rather enlightening, being able to look back without much bias, and see where my mistakes were made, etc. Idk, just give me your opinion lol.
 
For me it did help, but that doesn't mean time could have done the same exact thing.

I was in a long term relationship for nearly 5 years and when it ended I started using psyches more(mainly LSD, MDMA). The relationship was something that was on my mind A LOT, and it got pretty crazy dealing with the emotions. I would say it was a bad breakup but, I never had anxiety or a bad experience during a trip because of it, only deep heartfelt emotions I only wish I had a way to express to her.

This person is really special to me and will always have a spot in my heart. I would say it helped me appreciate the experience with her, rather than dwelling on the negative aspects of the relationship. Who is to say that I will ever fall in love again... I learned a lot about the way love seems to work.

I really think time would have done the same thing though.

Oh and by the way, she thinks I am crazy now! Woman....
 
Yeah Sega is right. Tread carefully if you decide to trip if things aren't resolved. It can be easy to beat yourself up, or dwell on things that are OVER with.

Focus on your good friends and be kind to yourself.
 
it helped for me, but only a month or two after the breakup. a week after the breakup and trips usually make me turn temporarily insane...
 
I think going into a trip with the goal of working on a specific emotional problem is a bad tactic, and Ill explain why.

It needs to be understood we have no control over the psychedelic experience. Set and setting can influence it, no doubt, but by and large the drug is going to run its course, warts and all, whether you like it or not. Could you come to a better understanding of why your relationship went wrong or whatever while under the influence of psychedelics? certainly, but there is just as big, if not a much bigger chance of no theraputic benefits coming about as a result of the experience. Yes, it is a very dangerous game using psychedelics for "enlightenment".

I feel like the over all message of psychedelics (without debating what that is) is much more important then any specific "revelation" one may encounter (and then probably forget lol) while on a psychedelic. Psychedelics tend to bring out a state I like to call "subconscious reflection". So what does this mean? Basically psychedelics will bring any and everything to the surface. Let me explain through an example.

Are you depressed about the end of your relationship? If so, you will probably subconsciously reflect this in your trip by bawling like a baby. This does not mean the tears are there for nothing, and in fact are necassary for healing.

I guess what I'm trying to tell you is not to EXPECT any benefits to come about as a result of the trip, because the drug is going to do what its going to do and you have NO CONTROL over that. Now could something positive come about? Its impossible for me to comment on your experience but I will let you know I have tripped in *extremely fragile* mental states, and I can assure none of them resulted in what I would call "bad trips" (though to call them fun would be a strech of the imagination beyond what I am comfterable with). Did I have to man up and face how I really felt (via hours spent crying)? you better believe it. Were they on the whole positive? More then you can imagine.

So whats my advice? Know yourself. BUTTT I will say by reading your OP (and the fact that you seem to be focusing on the past and not looking ahead) might be a good sign your not ready yet. Basically its like this, dont run from your negative thoughts and feelings, instead embrace them, feel them, fear them, hate them, do what you got to do but for gods sake feel them.
 
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interesting...I get super bad anxiety and stress over a relationship in the past...but it's mostly amplified when i smoke weed. I've actually never even thought about it when trippinbg, I remember last time i tripped (a week ago, 2 tabs of strong acid), I thought to myself how I WASN'T thinking of this relationship and how it was odd and I didn't even care, i just kept tripping and having a fantastic time. But everyone is different, that's just my experience.
 
OP, i think i should once again stress that this is a BAD idea.

before you do ANYTHING you NEED to realize that no matter what happened, no matter whats going to happen,
NONE OF IT FUCKING MATTERS ONE SINGLE BIT.

you can over analyze and think about what went wrong or how you might have done shit different,
or why things happened the way they did, to your hearts content-
but at the end of the day IT DOESNT MATTER.
things are the way they are for a reason, and that cannot be changed.
this reason may not be clear to you right now, but taking acid, even with the intent of sorting out "post relationship thoughts",
isnt going to make it any clearer.

here is what will happen- and one of these WILL happen-

1) You end up thinking about what happened in the relationship, everything good and bad, you bawl your eyes out and go temporarily insane and come out the trip refreshed with a clearer head thinking toward the future.
2) you think about the same shit, bawl your eyes out and go temporarily insane, curl into a ball and keep on crying for hours, at one point having a psychotic break and just lay there catatonic while your mind goes insane constantly reliving what went wrong, why it happened etc.
you come out of the trip completely traumatised, (worse than before) and for a good few weeks you are a broken man. this could continue for weeks, months even years.
(heard of post traumatic stress disorder?)
3) you think about all the stuff, you have an emotional rollercoaster once again, but this time you convince yourself of something that you will later realize isnt true-
examples: you never really loved her, she never really loved you, or whatever the lsd soaked mind can make connections to.

basically OP, ITS A BAD FUCKIN IDEA to use lsd and psychedelics/drugs in general to try and sort your head out
after a relationship ends, especially if it was a traumatic breakup.

i have been through emotional and psychological hell in my most recent relationship,
the breakup was extremely traumatic, i was suicidal and didnt speak to anyone and barely ate for weeks.
i took acid once thinking that i was ok to do so, and that i was getting over things.

NOPE. big fucking mistake that was. a song came on a youtube playlist that reminded me of her-
this is the one- "Call Me".
it all went downhill from there.
(this was a few months after the breakup btw)

another time i took with the intent of sorting my head out and getting over shit, ended up having a psychotic meltdown, curled up in a ball on my bed screaming at the top of my lungs (actually screaming) with absolutely no sound coming out, soaking my bed with tears.

the last time this happened (3rd time) it wasnt as bad but i was still crying my eyes out.

now im fine, but this is only after realizing NOTHING FUCKING MATTERS AT THE END OF THE DAY.
whats done is done and in the past and you cant change it.
before you go tripping to solve your problems you should try being sober for a few months (ganja doesnt count. it actually HELPS the process of healing so i advise it if you toke).
the best way to sort your head out post-breakup is to do so on your own.

without lsd's assistance. trust me on this one.
keep in mind LSD amplifies reality x10000 as well as your moods and emotions,
emotions and thought patterns on lsd are unpredictable and can go anywhere at anytime.

so please, for your own sake, dont try this.
you will be much better off with a clear head if you want to heal,
because acid certainly does not make things clearer, it just shoves your face into the cold hard facts some more.
(imagine a window. you can see the tree outside. lsd comes along and shoves your face against the glass like a bully.
now, you still see the tree, not really any better than before.
LSD says "but hey! your eyes are closer to it. thats good right?")

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good luck OP, and remember,
time is the best healer. take it from someone who knows.

Ps- these trips did work out positive in the end but fuck me i wouldnt recommend it to anyone.
 
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I would say don't until your feeling better. Stress is a bitch. I was actually planning on taking acid and thinking about my relationship as of now and decide if I'm really ok with how things are(things atleast for me have been feeling alittle rough). I don't think you would have a bad trip, it might not be fun, but it would probably be a very different and possible depressing experience.
 
Well my night to try this was supposed to be tonight, but last night I started throwing up....alot. Every half hour. Great stomach virus. It was my bodys way of telling me drugs werent the right choice atm.

I fully understand where my relationship went wrong already, that wasnt the issue I was thinking of, it was rather if I was making the right decision with being with her again, and to be honest, my sickness gave me the answer, she came over and took care of me all day. It sounds weird, but my biggest concern was being used again, and that she didnt care. I was able to see that she does care, so, I figured out what I wanted to without drugs.

Still got a few hits of lucy left though, I guess theyll just go back into the ol stash.
 
wahey =D
happy ending eh.
well apart from puking up! still, glad to hear things are better.

if your lady likes to trip too maybe you guys should take the acid together on a sunny day out together sometime soon?

take it easy hombe :)
 
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