Vastness
Bluelight Crew
I have begun to notice that Ketamine sometimes has what I gather to be a slightly unusual affect on me,
At what would usually be a K-holing dose, it sometimes happens that while I am trying to do something, for example get water, walk around the room either experimentally or for some purpose or other (perhaps ill-advisedly) and while this is happening the typical K-hole effects will build to the extent that I think I am somewhere else but I am still, visibly at least according to friends, mobile and apparently quite conscious and awake (although when this happens I apparently look like I think I am somewhere else).
The weird thing is that when this happens I can still sometimes observe people, specifically faces, sometimes attached to a probably imaginary body as part of the environment I perceive myself to be within, but also sometimes as inanimate objects nonsensical in a way that would never happen in reality, such as embedded into rocks, and probably a few other things I can't recall at the moment.
In fact sometimes I can even hear people talking and respond to them - the level of understanding that I have varies, sometimes I am quite aware that where I think I am is not real, sometimes I am not so sure. I have been in the midst of a K-hole and noticed someone's face who I am doing it (usually when they are sllightly less intoxicated) and have been able to ask them things. In fact one time, while I perceived myself to be in some magnificent rollercoaster combined with a futuristic restaurant sort of place, travelling through a vast forest, but was actually just sitting down on the floor, I saw my friend a short distance away from me and calmly asked her "Where are we?" In fact the entire brief conversation went something like this:
"Hey [friend's name]."
"Yeah?"
"Where are we?"
"In [girlfriend's] room."
"Oh... OK."
And then I lost sight of her and continued to trip the fuck out.
From what I have read and gathered from speaking to other people this is quite unusual.
Sometimes I am even standing up and looking around while this is happening, although I usually don't move too much although sometimes I am capable of it. I have even one time noticed objects and been able to tentatively reach out and pick them up (I once also asked "Is this an orange?" and was told it was).
It is possible that this happens at a level just slightly below a full blown full-body-anaesthetic Hole, as I have also experienced being entirely immobile and removed from waking reality, but I always just eyeball the dosages so I cannot be entirely certain of this. My only method of administration is nasal insufflation.
Thanks in advance for your responses.
At what would usually be a K-holing dose, it sometimes happens that while I am trying to do something, for example get water, walk around the room either experimentally or for some purpose or other (perhaps ill-advisedly) and while this is happening the typical K-hole effects will build to the extent that I think I am somewhere else but I am still, visibly at least according to friends, mobile and apparently quite conscious and awake (although when this happens I apparently look like I think I am somewhere else).
The weird thing is that when this happens I can still sometimes observe people, specifically faces, sometimes attached to a probably imaginary body as part of the environment I perceive myself to be within, but also sometimes as inanimate objects nonsensical in a way that would never happen in reality, such as embedded into rocks, and probably a few other things I can't recall at the moment.
In fact sometimes I can even hear people talking and respond to them - the level of understanding that I have varies, sometimes I am quite aware that where I think I am is not real, sometimes I am not so sure. I have been in the midst of a K-hole and noticed someone's face who I am doing it (usually when they are sllightly less intoxicated) and have been able to ask them things. In fact one time, while I perceived myself to be in some magnificent rollercoaster combined with a futuristic restaurant sort of place, travelling through a vast forest, but was actually just sitting down on the floor, I saw my friend a short distance away from me and calmly asked her "Where are we?" In fact the entire brief conversation went something like this:
"Hey [friend's name]."
"Yeah?"
"Where are we?"
"In [girlfriend's] room."
"Oh... OK."
And then I lost sight of her and continued to trip the fuck out.
From what I have read and gathered from speaking to other people this is quite unusual.
Sometimes I am even standing up and looking around while this is happening, although I usually don't move too much although sometimes I am capable of it. I have even one time noticed objects and been able to tentatively reach out and pick them up (I once also asked "Is this an orange?" and was told it was).
It is possible that this happens at a level just slightly below a full blown full-body-anaesthetic Hole, as I have also experienced being entirely immobile and removed from waking reality, but I always just eyeball the dosages so I cannot be entirely certain of this. My only method of administration is nasal insufflation.
Thanks in advance for your responses.
