Feeling a bit off today, well more off then usual I probably should say. Today is my day off, yet in three hours I am to attend our weekly manager meeting because my supervisor cannot seem to comprehend the concept of making a work schedule that makes any damn bit of sense at all. Well then now that that has been said, what else is there? I would like to take the dogs on a walk through the park before this previously mentioned meeting takes place. Something to brighten my mood before facing the inevitable. I hate how words tend to get stuck on the tip of my tongue. It even happens when I am writing. I a know what I want to communicate, but struggle in finding the words. Cognitive abilities do seem to be taking some damage. I imagine this is what getting old feels like, though I am only twenty five years old. There is nothing to blame for this but my own choices that I continue to make on a daily basis while the other half of me is screaming please no more.
But hey, my life is going great right? There has to be some speck or sliver left inside of me. Maybe there never was to begin with. Maybe I would not be at this point had there been. Maybe destiny is real, and a pot of gold still does lie at the end of this seemingly meaningless empty rainbow. It could be I am trying to hard to find meaning when there isn't any. Either way I am not going down without a fight. There is something out there that I can feel and am determined to find.
But hey, my life is going great right? There has to be some speck or sliver left inside of me. Maybe there never was to begin with. Maybe I would not be at this point had there been. Maybe destiny is real, and a pot of gold still does lie at the end of this seemingly meaningless empty rainbow. It could be I am trying to hard to find meaning when there isn't any. Either way I am not going down without a fight. There is something out there that I can feel and am determined to find.