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[**hAyzzZZ**]

I hate the way i block things out
and the state of denial my mind is in
when the things i should be dealing with,
are all but fragments of a terrible bout.

I know that i should face my fears
but does that mean i reveal my true self,
i dont think i am ready to be so open
the world is not ready for me to disappear.

Why im writing this i never understand
i always go over the same thoughts and phrases
why oh why didnt i just...
but it only worsens the problems in my hand.


They say that change is a matter of thinking
but then why are my thoughts never ending
they never cease, never differ
i always wonder if i will be stuck; forever swirling....



suckass effort, but i will re do this when i have more time.

 

[colicolo]

i know this feeling, it seems you are only just scracthing the surface. If you develop this more I think it could be a splendid piece.