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[Meeko Baybee]

Here is an untitled poem that I wrote about someone who passed away last year, and the feelings that I wish I told him but never had the chance to.

Fight away all of these tears
Clench onto memories that slowly slip away
Through the fingers of time I wish to go back
So many times I wished to tell you what screamed
Inside my heart and soul but I denied what I felt
Because of Her, and because of You.
So young, so much to live for, and I wanted you to be free
None the less... I hated to say goodbye each time I saw you
I wanted the hug to last a moment longer
The kiss to happen one more time
I just wanted you to be there one more time.
I know you feel my thoughts now, but its not enough
It's not enough to be denied that last hug
It's unfair to believe that this is the end
Until the end
And I want to deny what I ever believed
But I can't... I won't.
It's not enough to only hear your voice in my
Dreams that seem so real
Only to be broken when my eyes awaken from slumber
While you are ripped away until you decide to visit again
It's not fair, answers are not coming
It's better, but it's never okay
My dreams are so sweet when you are there
Memories are always gracing my mind
Always surrendering my lips to a smile
With you in my heart, you are never gone
But I long for that one last hug
That one last kiss
That one last OOOOOH YEAAAAH!
That one last orange glow on the dancefloor
I long for you to be curled up on my bed
One last time
That one last hello
And one last goodbye.
I want one last you.
And never let go.

 

[Raz]

I know the feeling, especially the bit about only seeing them in dreams and them being ripped away when you wake up...don't ever be afraid to tell people how you feel because you may not always be able to, eh..

 

[Meeko Baybee]

I tell everyone what I feel now, my friends death taught me so much about how I wished to tell him so much more but never did. In fact after reading this last night I contacted my ex... we broke off on very bad terms and stopped speaking. I wrote him saying how much I missed him, we are both with other people that we are probably going to marry but I do miss his friendship, I thought he wouldnt answer my email back but he did, and now we are going to work on being friends again. It just shows that it's worthwhile to tell someone how you feel, no matter what the outcome may be.

I can only change my relationships from here on out and make sure that everyone knows how I feel... lifes too short to not let the ones that we love know that we love them.

I go through phases of missing my friend a lot, and this is one of those moments in my life. It will pass... I would rather cry many tears over his death then not knowing him at all. The pain is worth the memories I have of him