Unsure

[Monika]

God but it sucks to be so unsure
Just bursting wanting to feel again
And keeping a lid on it
While trying to figure out
Which parts I'm reading are uncertainty
Screaming out for clues
Which are truth staring me in the face
And then there's the part of me,
Practical and educated in the theories of the world
(But really just afraid of anything which seems to be
Getting to me at that point where I have no defences)
Which pleads with my reason to keep control
Too soon and too strong and too many indications
And who can trust those amazingly good things
Which are refusing to subside with lack of chemically induced feelings...
(How does that fearful side of me explain that?)
But probably will... but then
Paranoia dictates the reception of things signalling clearly
That the smaller suggestions must be ignored for now
Still they are fighting on side with my defencelessness
To overpower the logical, worldly, commanding and
Terrifyingly sceptical jezebel who holds the key
To releasing that fragile leaf for another beating
(Or a magical ride on the back of the wind)
God but it sucks to be so unsure

 

[E-girl]

To overpower the logical, worldly, commanding and
Terrifyingly sceptical jezebel who holds the key
this was a really amazing piece, hon. hope we will see more of your works here.
it sucks to be unsure, but if you knew every path your life would take, would you still think it worth taking?
It's like Aerosmith said, 'Life's a journey, not a destination.' i really do believe that.