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LadyAlkaline said:
Specified, there is nothing to do but relax. Even if cameras were everywhere, they can't do anything to you.

The dog there is probably a therapy dog. It isnt going to bite you.
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But My life is a trash porn and I am being fucked all the time.

and the cameras people USED to watch me masturbate. I don't masturbate anymore, that's why i said used in capitals, maybe it's the meth I just feel so Ugh.

i'm not scared of the dog....he's a nice doggy
 
Specified said:
this psych ward lets you use your cellphone
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Can verify that more and more institutions are allowing cell phone use in recent years. I don't want ro say much more because I was one of the main antagonists in the last thread which lead to its closure.. if not the main guy.

Specified, I hope you make use of your time in there to get some real help. Sounds like as well as detox, and mental health issues, you need some sexual counseling too. I hope you can at least consider that and get those processes started. It's nothing to be ashamed of.
 
Alex_1991 said:
Can verify that more and more institutions are allowing cell phone use in recent years. I don't want ro say much more because I was one of the main antagonists in the last thread which lead to its closure.. if not the main guy.

Specified, I hope you make use of your time in there to get some real help. Sounds like as well as detox, and mental health issues, you need some sexual counseling too. I hope you can at least consider that and get those processes started. It's nothing to be ashamed of.
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Thanks man I appreciate you're concern. Oh yeah I do need some sexual counseling to sort out my libido, but who do I call the sex place or something?
 
Specified said:
Thanks man I appreciate you're concern. Oh yeah I do need some sexual counseling to sort out my libido, but who do I call the sex place or something?
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Very quick find, can't verify the quality of any of those. Other then that, sex therapy is a real thing. Any nurse or psych doc where you are could probably point you the right direction. Dont even have to say why, just the fact of "Where could someone get counseling for xyz".
 
Go to counseling man they'll probably know better. Refraining from stimulants and staying hydrated is a start though. And eat yer God damn fruits and veggies too bud
 
For real though @Specified I have at one point in my life believed people were following me, fbi, cia. To this day I sometimes struggle with knowing normal sounds of my environment and not hearing soft voices. It's the most miserable shit to go through at times. But for me a lot of it was exacerbated by my own behavior. Stop smoking methamphetamine and it will improve, quickly.

It's tough on the internet to decide whether people are genuine, cause I don't know you personally and I'm just gonna take you at your word at first. If you're feeling this way, i think you have passed the use of this forum. Logoff, stop using, and take psychiatric medicine from a doctor. Because I think everyone here has said the same thing, you need help that you can't fin here.Looking back on your posts your behavior clearly changed recently after smoking. A breakup followed by a meth bender usually doesn't jive. Don't know your history but it hasn't been seeming fun recently.

It would be wrong to feign psychosis to get a laugh of some conflict in a place where people are trying to recover from that. I wouldn't think you would do that, so you should probably just get the help bud.

No one here is trying to harm you, it is a harm reduction site, there's all sorts of fucked up people on here trying to help each other.
 
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I'm sorry to say this, I really am but, I have to believe that you may be suffering from early stages or, methamphetamine schizophrenia. Those feelings (that you're constantly being watched) are normal for your diagnosis. It can be very hard but, with possibly a better dr, you can beat this. Also, some meds for bipolarism/schizophrenia are VERY much affected by methamphetamine or other amphetamine drugs. A REAL dr can get you straightened out and back to living a GREAT life, with everything you are missing right now. My prayers are with you, best of luck!
 
Specified said:
Okay, I don't know if this is the right place to put this post, if it is wrong could mods please move. it Thank you.

I dunno what to do anymore. First off I lost about four thousand through polipay. Second off I lost $461.50 on Ebay.
I'm shattered because I had lots and lots and lots of money, now I have nothing. I wants it back. I just feel so, so, Ugh.
I'm a methamphetamine addict. I like to call it methamphetamine because meth just seems dirty, and it's not. It's not as bad as those meth montana project ads, they are an absolute joke.

Everyone thinks i'm schizophrenic and i'm not, i'm also shattered about this. I made a thread about this in the lounge (I know its a joke forum but I didn't know where it to put it, much like this post, I should have asked the mods if it was allowed)
Maybe I am schizophrenic because I tripped over and almost fell to the ground on the train the other train, and some Lady said "spastic" I'm pretty sure she was talking about me because when I turned around she was looking at me with a grin on her face.
I was very upset about this.

There was only about four people on the train because of the Conara virus so i'm happy the train wasn't full or the whole train would have laughed at me.
I don't have a car so I have to catch the train or walk everywhere. Ugh
I hate my psychiatrist his a fuckhead he pulls the strings, he's in charge. I would love to do something like torture him and his family.


My neighbours watch me on the cellphone and don't know what to do about it.
I left a not written on a piece of paper saying "Liars" and sticky taped on there driveway. They knew it was me because I confronted them the day before. So hello just say neighhhh bours. I know you're watching me.
They watch me go to the bathroom and I can't do anything about it. They USED to watch me masturbate, I say USED to because I have no Libido anymore, oh no I just remembered they watched me at a hotel I stayed at. (I have Libido when I take Methamphetamine) They watched me masturbate on the floor (I should have said "jerkin' off on the sheets, when I stay at Hotels) like the lyrical mastermind Immortal Technique says on the track Obnoxious. It's an Invasion of privacy. It has to stop. I don't know what to do to them.

Well I don't know where I'm headed with this my neighbours are my main concern.
What should I do?
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Specified, you have friends.

Some people have given you a hard time and have probably egged each other on like happens, not just the lounge either. That does not mean everyone thinks that way.

It's difficult to say if anyone has a disorder and sometimes people say they have as he for example but have never been diagnosed so technically they don't.

We've been talking here off an on a while now and I really like you, you're sometimes a bit hard to understand but pm /things better.

All I recall is you were hospitalised, were on a lot of seroquel at a time, you don't owe anyone your history anyway.

There are a lot of armchair psychiatrists here who will say you're this or that, I wasn't sure if you were ages ago but don't really care as have mates who have schizophrenia...big deal.

All I know is what you say to me and private stays private.

So you're a drug addict. There's many and I'd say the people giving you shit would use more drugs and just pretend they don't.


Cravings are the worst and I hate being an addict, unless I'm high and not giving a shit.

You're not alone, mate.

As for money: man I can't help you there. If you can cut your losses just keep the hell away from online spending. Keep money you really need away in an account not linked to anything.

You'll build up again.

Hope u feel better.
 
✿Dai₷y✿ said:
Specified, you have friends.

Some people have given you a hard time and have probably egged each other on like happens, not just the lounge either. That does not mean everyone thinks that way.

It's difficult to say if anyone has a disorder and sometimes people say they have as he for example but have never been diagnosed so technically they don't.

We've been talking here off an on a while now and I really like you, you're sometimes a bit hard to understand but pm /things better.

All I recall is you were hospitalised, were on a lot of seroquel at a time, you don't owe anyone your history anyway.

There are a lot of armchair psychiatrists here who will say you're this or that, I wasn't sure if you were ages ago but don't really care as have mates who have schizophrenia...big deal.

All I know is what you say to me and private stays private.

So you're a drug addict. There's many and I'd say the people giving you shit would use more drugs and just pretend they don't.


Cravings are the worst and I hate being an addict, unless I'm high and not giving a shit.

You're not alone, mate.

As for money: man I can't help you there. If you can cut your losses just keep the hell away from online spending. Keep money you really need away in an account not linked to anything.

You'll build up again.

Hope u feel better.
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how did you know i was on a lot of seroquel and money issues?
 
You posted somewhere here ages and ages ago about some shit to do with Seroquel ,some other antipsychotic drug not sure what one... like way over a couple years ago I think.


Some questions about using meth and getting around the meds, I'm a bit tired and it would be better if you searched for this, you've been a member here a while now

And the money think is from your original post in this thread. Not sure what you mean by however you lost it though.
 
✿Dai₷y✿ said:
You posted somewhere here ages and ages ago about some shit to do with Seroquel ,some other antipsychotic drug not sure what one... like way over a couple years ago I think.


Some questions about using meth and getting around the meds, I'm a bit tired and it would be better if you searched for this, you've been a member here a while now

And the money think is from your original post in this thread. Not sure what you mean by however you lost it though.
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what about the cameras
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it's cool man we'll leave it to Andrew Macpherson who left Naughty Times and left in my car after the session with hardly a word to say after I said so how was it? LMFAOOh remember ANYTIME IS TRANNY TIME LOLOL NO? YES? WELL YOU DON'T HAVE TO SHOVE THAT BIG SPOON UP YOU'RE ASS!!
Since I named names in another thread I think it's only fair to name names in this thread after I eat a rolllllllllllll more foooooooooooooooooodddddd im so fucking hunggrrryyy
 
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I apologize to you @Specified, I thought we were just playing around, I got a unique sence of humor. I'll be on my way. Stay safe buddy.

And sorry to the Mod for having to clean up my mess.
 
✿Dai₷y✿ said:
Not sure what you mean, as in what should you do about them or do they exist?

Forget them a minute....are you taking seroquel or similar and meth at same time?
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what should I do about them?>
i'm not taking seroquel and meth at the same time
 
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