Unrequited (love?)

[jubbalo]

The smile on my face,
A faded empty promise to you.
My life turned upside down,
I fell on top of you.
Maybe I was a blanket for a while
But ultimately I weighed you down,
You stood up and tossed me aside
I landed hard on the cold cold ground.
The echo of your footsteps
as you walked away haughnts me to this day.
The feeling of my warm love evapourating
still feels like it was yesterday.
So much I could have done for you
So much you could have done for me,
but your love was never for me was it?
I was wrong to to think it could be you.
My one saving grace is that
You still don't know what you've done.
Blissfully unaware and innocent
keeps you from knowing of the damage that has been done.
The pain is all mine
And you get to go into your sunny dawn.
I stay behind in the rain,
The earth crying along with my tears so forlorn.
All the love and pain and hate I've felt for you
You will never know.
Is this a tragedy for me
And a saving grace for you?
I lay motionless in my melancoly stupor
Unable to see through this confusion.
My disabled heart screams out coldly
For recognition that will never come.
I poured myself unconditionally
Down into the emotional black hole that is you.
All you ever wanted from me was nothing
And that was all I ever got from you.
Somewhere deep inside me is the answer to this riddle,
How I could do this to myself.
I am so happy however
That somehow you escaped me,
You didn't let me drag you down too.
[ 08 May 2002: Message edited by: jubbalo ]

 

[Frosty da snowman]

dammn. I felt that.

 

[E-girl]

The echo of your footsteps
as you walked away haughnts me to this day.
yeah, me too.
chin up sweetie. there are better things to remember in life... like the day he walked into your life! no matter how badly it ended, in the end, it taught you things about life you wouldnt have learned otherwise. look back fondly, not regretfully.
i'll never forget the saddest day of my life... after what i thought was just another fight with my fiance, there on the boardwalk last summer, the last time we walked away from each other was the day it ended for good, and i know that when i look back, i can see him so clearly, walking away. and from 8 months later and hundreds of miles away, my arms are still outstretched, hoping he'll come back.
and then i kick myself in the ass because he wasn't worth it, and still isnt. but that's the memory i have of him.