Unable to block out the feelings....

[harraser]

I dont have the energy for this
Its just too much to bare
I try with all my might not to care
I used to be so good at blocking out the pain
Putting on a face of sympathetic tragedy
When really I couldnt feel a thing
Except emptiness
But now things are different
I opened up the door just a crack
And it fell off its hinges
Leaving the way forever open
For all the feelings
Id avoided for so long
To come in
And pick me up
And throw me down
Again and again
Highs and lows
One after the other
Coming in such rapid succesion
That Im left feeling so confused
Unable to tell up from down
While happy, thinking of nothing
Except my dread
For the heartbreak to come
And while sad, only longing
For the happiness I had

 

[5FACES]

WOW! really, reallt impressive!

 

[living in solitude]

i know exactly how you feel...
great work and keep your head up! =/

 

[Angelight]

One after the other
Coming in such rapid succesion
That Im left feeling so confused
Unable to tell up from down
While happy, thinking of nothing
Except my dread
For the heartbreak to come
And while sad, only longing
For the happiness I had
unbelievable.
This refected so much of how i am feeling these days. Thankyou for sharing this...

 

[frostyangel]

I opened up the door just a crack
And it fell off its hinges
I can understand this because, I can walk around not feeling anything. Then this one person came along, and fought for my feelings, then as soon as I began to feel again, I got a smack in the face, "my door fell of it's hinges"
I love reading things that I relate with!!

 

[roarkisdead]

amazing.....are you writing about my life? you have a way of expressing how so many people feel. love your work can't wait to read more