Exhausted Ugh…

Katanya

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Okay, so before ~4:00pm today I had been up for 3 days because my Vyvanse Rx was automatically filled (which was a pleasant surprise!

I managed to sleep for a few hours but now I honestly want to take more Vyvanse and stay up hyper focused on something that is fun.

I know I should sleep but I don’t want to tbh.

I was almost burned by the fact that I chose not to sleep last night because I had to work an 8 hour shift, and when I got up I felt…more out of it than I normally do on Vyvanse.

I went to work and eventually I started to feel normal thank fuck. I did lie at work and say my Mom was sick last night and that’s why I was late. I also mentioned that I didn’t sleep as a result, since I might have seemed tired.

I got through work though at least so I do think God is on my side tbh.
 
I can sort of relate - often times I try not to knock myself out if I don't really feel like sleeping. I can always take a pill and snooze for 7 hours without interruption after 30 minutes but sleeping can feel like such a waste of time. Not that I have extremely important things to do - even just spending the time in my own head can be pleasing.

I usually just end up knocking out without meaning to after sitting in the dark thinking about things. Ill replay the day, visualize potential futures and how they may come about in different scenarios. I find that once I've "figured things out" to a reasonable extent given the time I have, I'll naturally relax and it's a rap.

Anyway, just replying mostly since no one has yet. Didn't tag you because what I'm saying isn't really important for you to know, other than:

Yeah, sleep is annoying. Awesome job managing to pull it together during the day.
 
Bad sleep has always been one the first things that leads to a extended period of me becoming unwell.. (into becoming manic or extremely low just for good measure)

I’ve tried plenty of legit science based methods that help, but outside of having a very rigid and autistic regime, it can be fucked up easily.

20+ Grams of Creatine I’ve found to be the most helpful when waking up after a terrible nights sleep when your still expected to perform.
 
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