long story short. i feel homicidal/suicidal (not so much though). been drinking heavy, stopped my bi-polar meds, been dealing with an ex and our dying dog. I watch the dog 3-5 days a week, thats cool its at her house. but she only calls when she needs something. Ok fine. I return the calls. But nearly everytime i call/text her, for anything no reply. I HATE that. We are fuking again and that could very well be my problem. I'm feeling used, hurt, confused?? Man up?? I would but that dog is my bro and I dont wanna lose access to him. WTF am I going thru??
