No room for negativity in this one. It's good to be alive. Where did the shift come from? What was it that made me look at those pills and finally say from a place deep within my heart: I fucking hate you. Leave me and never come back. Was it God? Was it will? Whatever it was, I'm grateful.
Don't get me wrong, I could talk for hours about what I see is wrong with humanity - but as I said - this isn't the time for cynicism and negativity. I have feelings again. This scares me, but also fills me with a private joy. Listening to music, it's as if i'm listening with new ears.
I turned my back on so many things when lost in that fog of substances and insecurity. I'm learning to love my body. I'm eating right, bouldering (rock climbing,) sleeping well, and waking up (mostly) clear headed. Some days are better than others, but that's the swing of life.
I will not die in that hole. I will not die on my knees.
Don't get me wrong, I could talk for hours about what I see is wrong with humanity - but as I said - this isn't the time for cynicism and negativity. I have feelings again. This scares me, but also fills me with a private joy. Listening to music, it's as if i'm listening with new ears.
I turned my back on so many things when lost in that fog of substances and insecurity. I'm learning to love my body. I'm eating right, bouldering (rock climbing,) sleeping well, and waking up (mostly) clear headed. Some days are better than others, but that's the swing of life.
I will not die in that hole. I will not die on my knees.
