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Tweaker's Treasure

As I said before, I'm no stranger to this phenomenon. I can usually ignore the delusion/illusion easily because I know full well that it's just an odd side effect of the methamphetamine high. However, the other night I was REALLY HIGH and it hit me hard.

I now have true empathy with folks who have severe OCD. There I was crawling around picking "shards" out of the carpet for about 2 hours, and the whole time I was telling myself "Stop! You know this is bullshit, so just stop and find something better to do. Stop it! STOP IT NOW!" but I just could not stop. Fortunately, I had enough sanity to not actually consume any of the stuff. The weirdest part is that I felt like I was enjoying myself despite the psychotic argument going on in my head.

That episode inspired me to write this little poem a few hours later:


TWEAKER'S TREASURE
(a warning)


Twinkle, twinkle, shards galore!
On the table, on the floor,
Gleaming here, glistening there,
There's crystal scattered everywhere!

So on all fours in tweaking glee
I gather every shard I see.
Every tiny sparkling bit
I'll save for when I crave a hit.

I'm out of ice-- don't wanna crash,
So now it's time to check my stash:

Sugar, rock salt, cookie crumbs,
Chips of aspirin (maybe TUMS),
Slivers from cracked windowpane,
Scraps of foil and cellophane,
A bit of chalk, some candle wax,
Paint flakes, plastic, fiberglass,
Acrylic, dog hair, specks of glitter,
Detergent, Roach Prufe, kitty litter,
Dusty fragments of unknown things,
Spider webs, and insect wings,

All mixed in with carpet nap--
I'm glad I didn't smoke that crap!
 
Just take a vacuum and start cleaning before you start crawling around. I promise there is nothing on the ground worth the search.

Trust me.

---The man who fell asleep on the floor.
 
Yeah.. even if what you found even is meth.. putting that shit into your body (let alone into your veins) is potentially disastrous and so not worth it. You really should just throw it out and come to terms with the fact that you've ran out of meth and if you want more... go actually get some that preferably hasn't been on the ground and covered in shit. If you're going to do it anyway.. just at the very least do not shoot it.
 
Exactly. Considering how careful we all are when getting our drugs and doing them, think of the likelihood of the floor actually having tons of methamphetamine shards on it. Slim to none, right? I have been doing drugs for a while, and with the exception of weed, I can assure you that every last milligram of my drugs has been accounted for between getting the drugs, pouring them out onto the surface where I prepare them, and then doing them. I have never had any real amount of drugs left over on my floor, and definitely not a substantial amount where I would be able to feel anything from it.

Im am truly surprised it took so many posts before somebody actually realized its probably not shards.
In fact im wondering if the OP is joking around with this common meth delusion and stereotype.

OP if you are not joking then simply eat the shit. Whats meth in there will work well orally and whats organic will help towards any likely malnutrition you have at this time and lastly any organisms or dem der evil GERMS will be used as target practice to improve your immune system and make you stronger, more powerful. Like when that guy in Hylander cuts of the head of his enemies in absorbs their power.

Consider thats 2 benefits as well as far less risk over and above the other suggested ROA's in this thread. It just wouldnt make sense to put carpet dirt in your nose or your ass, and obviously not your veins. Thats just not logical.

Surprise Lesson Time. Want to know to never get sick and pass this gift down to your children? Read on

Anti bacterial soaps and hand wipes before touching public areas, wtf. Avoiding germs and dirt is BAD FOR YOU.
Being overprotective of your children in the same way sets them up for health issues later on in life.
Your immune system needs to train. Instead we live our lives as if we are in charge if an army and then we do everything possible to under train and under equip it.

As i kid i grew up on a farm and played in the dirt and the shit and swam in polluted rivers in africa and made bets with the other kids to see who would be literally ass raped by the bilhazia bug first and the winner gets to feed it to the looser, shit, corn and all. I also ate raw bacon and raw chicken and raw pre-bacon pork and even an ant once or twice when quite young and unaware of the risks. As kids wee made snowmen with giraffe shit and possum pelts and even learnt to track animals by tasting the dung to detect warmth and thus proximity. (I still think tasting it and not feeling it for warmth was my father being an asshole so you could pick either when in this position youself)

I continue to say fek eff to the fear of germs to this day. I welcome the filth and the muck and joyfully revel in it at every opportunity and have thus armored myself with near immunity to disease as well as getting laid which addresses the HIV risk as well.

Due to this I never get sick, ever, no jokes, no lies. I did when i was a kid and the troops where training. But since leaving high school I have never been ill ever. No flu, stomach issues, colds, nothing. Alcohol has allowed me to know what proper nausea and vomiting feels like and drug comedowns perhaps what flu feels like, so at least im not missing out completely and can relate to what lesser humans experience.

And I am a totally unhealthy overweight 30yo sedentary male that abuses drugs, eats whatever pleases me, drinks alcohol and plans efficient usage of large drinking containers and multi purpose trips to the kitchen so that I can move and thus expend effort as little as humanly possible each day, while working from home.

Yes i am still overweight but i feel this is a necessary concession to always remind me that I am still technically human and mortal and this works to keep me humble and forever striving for further perfection.

And while i can be considered an advanced form of human in other ways, I am physically normal in terms of the susceptibility to human ailments, besides of course my superhuman special forces trained immune system which is so powerful due to a learned process, that you can create for yourself as well. And my family that believes the same things are the same in this ability to avoid illness. I am not an amazing abomination engineered in some lab as many think. My abilities are all in everybodies grasp.

And of course with a little bit of common sense you must just make sure to avoid the real nasties that dont play fair like avoiding consuming corpses infected with HIV, sharing needles and so forth. Most of the bad ones you can avoid with some proper thought and logic. Anything non life threatening should be welcomed, unpleasant or not, and this is a good rule for going through life and creating wisdom as well. Any difficulties and pain and so forth will only make only make you stronger.
As drug users you should know this concept well as many of you have likely gained much strength of will and reinforcement and confidence of your own sense of self and goals that can be gained by dealing with the great difficulty drug addiction and withdrawals provide for example

Some ideas to get you started on your journey to showing illness the finger:

1. If somebody wines like a little bitch that you didnt wash your hands after taking a piss, explain to them that it was unnecessary since you did in fact not piss on your hands. And of course if you had you can explain how urine does not contain dangers of any kind and therefore washing hands is completely unnecessary. Continue along this vein as necessary.
Oh and be sure to enjoy the confusion as they try to justify this completely pointless tradition in a way that makes any practical sense whatsoever and realize it doesn't, as with so many other pointless things we do in life. Do not fear for their pain however, they shall quickly revert back to ignorant bliss. Its far easier then questioning life and thinking for themselves.

2. KIDS! Next time your mommy pisses you off and wont buy you that toy you always wanted or tells you to wash your hands before dinner or go take a bath, dont put shoes on the table, wipe the toilet seat and so forth, be sure to cry with misery and pain and with a whimper ask her why oh why your own mother would want you to suffer the misery of countless illnesses and thus possibly missed work days, possibly missed growth opportunities, possibly missed encounters with your one true love and as if all this misery is not enough, likely see you succumbing to the dark embrace of a slow boring death by something rather average in risk with the likelihood of others often surviving it. Your family does not deserve the shame this death would cause as a result of your weakness.

Make her explain in detail why she hates you so much to want to rip away the chance of a good life, health, finding a true live and then to have your life cut short by a shameful peasants death. Offer to either end your own life now in shame with a rusty spoon as a way to atone for whatever cruel deed you must have inflicted upon her or instead you can explain to her the evil delusion she has fallen victim to that is using her to plan your future misery.
Explain the truths and how she can save your life and as a result the life of your many descendants, some of which will foster in a great time of peace and prosperity to the world. She will see the light and step out into the way of truth. Pray she gets your point and as a bonus she probably feels guilty enough now to ask for a cookie or even some ice cream.

You can now get dirty, eat worms, not wash your hands and let the dog lick you on the mouth with the knowlege that from your cocoon of filth and decay will one day spring forth a winged god completely immune to sick days and the fear of death, almost.

And your lesson is complete. Live Dirty. Live Long.
 
Im am truly surprised it took so many posts before somebody actually realized its probably not shards.
In fact im wondering if the OP is joking around with this common meth delusion and stereotype.

OP if you are not joking then simply eat the shit. Whats meth in there will work well orally and whats organic will help towards any likely malnutrition you have at this time and lastly any organisms or dem der evil GERMS will be used as target practice to improve your immune system and make you stronger, more powerful. Like when that guy in Hylander cuts of the head of his enemies in absorbs their power.

Meth can transfer HIV to people even if they're not IV users. Meth has 0 nutritional value.
Meth weakens your immune system. It only hides symptoms if you become sick.

As drug users you should know this concept well as many of you have likely gained much strength of will and reinforcement and confidence of your own sense of self and goals that can be gained by dealing with the great difficulty drug addiction and withdrawals provide for example

As a drug user I feel less strong as I have allowed the allure of simple gratification through toying with my brain chemistry with substances override my natural pleasure processes.
 
^^

I get your point but i try and recommend to others to always attempt to take a learning and wisdom away from any experience, incorporate it as true understanding and be better off for it. This can be done with anything. Its not always easy or obvious but there is always something, usually personal and different for us all that was gained and makes you better off then before.

Sit and ponder it for ages if you must, just do it. The fact is if you are not consciously learning and gaining and growing from all experiences, especially difficult ones with much perceived loss and sacrifice like life changing drug addiction possibly over years, then its truly sad in my opinion because then the event truly caused only damage and regret and was wasted time. It has won, you have failed and it will be a regret tainting your life forever.

I simply refuse the above example. It is not an acceptable situation and I refuse the idea of this thing having power over me and offering nothing in return for the sacrifice i made. Simply find something to take away from it, identify something it showed you, some truth, some new idea sparked. Decide on something and from then on know what you received from that experience and look back on it as a trial or struggle that required sacrifice and therefore you should respect and never forget whatever you have chosen to take away from the experience and use it to make your life better.

Its not about things happening for a reason or seeking out these things for leanings or glorifying these dark times. Its about actively choosing make the most out of life by sucking as much value out of everything as possible. About ensuring nothing has stolen your time and life without forcing it to give something back to you. And at the end of the day never having any regrets by your own choice. Not being the victim as you go through life.

Im talking concepts, understandings, wisdom. Not "Heroin is bad, dont do it again"

Rather some better examples:

1. The difficulty and pain of the withdrawal experience is something unlike non drug users have had to experience. This will certainly make other trials and difficult times seem far more manageable and less stressful in comparison to my other experience. Others may struggle while you now deal with it with far less stress having felt worse pain and turmoil in the past.

2. As per above and now i have my experience and the path i took to eventually break free from it. This test of will and motivation and other mental supports can assuredly be applied to other aspects of life to improve those areas as well

3. As per one but having successfully dealt with this experience i can truly relate to others with similar hardships and offer genuine help and guidance so as to offer peace to another human in need. Having this ability to help another out of this hell is truly a gift

4. As per 1 but now being experienced with drugs when i discuss them with my kids one day i can speak from a point of understanding and wisdom and can relate to how they might be thinking on the topic and can show them my experience in the matter and therefore have a greater chance of steering them clear from hardships they shouldnt need to experience, then if i where teaching them from a point of ignorance.

I can go on and on, these are more basic and obvious. Try and find something deep and special to take away as well as the obvious

Its not easy and i struggled to find value out of my serious years of anxiety issues but eventually noticed something due to how i delt with life with the reduced emotional capacity, that I am developing into something very interesting and profound for me personally that is incredibly exciting and im even considering writing a book about it one day.

And now i can say that its likely all those years of struggle are looking to be totally worth it due to the value gained out of the idea im currently developing into something functional to use moving forward. No regrets, peace of mind. No anger about my weakness and wasted opportunities and what ifs.

Fuck accepting the hand you are dealt. At least make the most out of it. Count those cards, analyze that hand and have a better chance at winning the next! haha

Its an attitude and mindset change as well. Its not easy but at least with you guys im sure its easier then your withdrawals you recently succeeded at so in fact its already won like before, easy. Life is as hard as what you have to compare to.

Thats why i always tell people that drug users due to the trials and difficulties have such an advantage and headstart over normal folk and should be respected as having wisdom to share and lessons to impart and can be relied upon for advice and support in tough times. As long as they have moved on, regained control, rejected being the victim and decided to turn tough times into learings and goals and turning that battle tested will and resolve to break through and break free to lifes next challenge and the next to force life to give them exactly what they want out of it. Go for gold. The scraps of life can go to the non drug users who have no idea about real struggle and pain and true perseverance to conquer it, like we do eh. Makes sense.

We just need to stop this defeatist attitude, regret and guilt and put our elite training in stress, hardships, will etc to good use. You have a head start over everybody else. Having a comfortable life is in fact not preferable or helpful.

Bleh if i havent made my point now i never will.
 
Meth isnt thay hard to spill though to be honest. I always used to drop a little bit no matter what. I would Strongly Strongly advise you to not ingect that please. That sounds awful and I don't want to say it but theres a good way to get a very nasty infection or worse by doing this. If you dont know what staph infection is please look it up. I have heard of a friend getting it just after shooting "clean" meth that wasnt so clean. I would be worried theres something else in there. Its just not worth the risk to slam that. I dont even think consuming it would be very good. Anytime I drop meth which I did that last time I messed with the stuff I pick it up but for HR and then I throw it away
 
Meth can transfer HIV to people even if they're not IV users. Meth has 0 nutritional value.
Meth weakens your immune system. It only hides symptoms if you become sick.



As a drug user I feel less strong as I have allowed the allure of simple gratification through toying with my brain chemistry with substances override my natural pleasure processes.

I do want to contribute in by saying my best friend is positive. I have had several positive friends and partners though we all played safe. I know more than a few who got HIV and were regular everyday meth addicts or IV coke fiends and some dont even know how the got HIV. I am negative and need to get tested again to make absolutely sure. You dont have to use the IV method to get HIV ever. It is very big for people to hide there status as well and thats where the worries come in. If you want a life just stay away from meth ---Every so often OK......but seriously I have done a lot of fucking terrible shit and meth is the one drug I have guilt doing. Never snort from a straw an IV user used or even just a snorter. Blood is blood.
 
Cap H-- It may not be universal, but I assure you it is common.

My personal theory is that really high tweakers see sparkles in things that are always there but we just don't notice them most of the time. Combine that with the fact that we do sometimes drop a piece or two and are able able to find it; this leads to the notion that maybe there are some unfound shards laying around somewhere. Remember that the phenomenon occurs while we are very high(maybe not thinking in entirely rational ways) and are out or almost out of meth. So the optical illusion reinforces the psychological delusion(wishful thinking) that "Yes, Virginia, there is a Santa Claus and he throws meth around your house."

In my case, there is another factor. The very first time I was doing it at the place I live right now, I was cutting on a large chunk of crystal and a good-sized shard went flying across the room. Never did find it. I'm sure that, subconsciously, I think someday I'll run across it.
 
do u know how many hands have been on that meth anyway and how it got here and the chemmicals u all r worried about it falling on the floor hahahhah idiots its probably fell in worse than that b4 it got to u omg ur putting drano into ur viens i mean come on ppl fyi get so sleep
 
My personal theory is that really high tweakers see sparkles in things that are always there but we just don't notice them most of the time.

Random genius strikes. Those sparkles, fuck. I know exactly what you mean. While i never see shards lying around those sparkles have fucked with me in other ways, made me think things, crazy things...
 
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