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Turn that FROWN upside down jnr, or not. Why the upside down smile?

I'm pretty sure i'm having a quarter life crisis

<3

I think I had one of those last year (actually more like a meltdown).


Work is killing me at the moment. I don't have enough hours in the day or days left in the year to do everything I want to get sorted before going on leave.
 
Work is killing me at the moment. I don't have enough hours in the day or days left in the year to do everything I want to get sorted before going on leave.

Quoted so I don't have to retype it myself. Work can suck a hairy cock - I'm so tired and run down I can barely tell my ass from my head, which is kind of awkward.
 
One of my two cats got hit by a car last night. We took her to the vet, she was stabilised and staying at the vet. We went home. When they did x-rays, she started getting worse. They found that she had herniated her diaphragm. We had the choice of either a $3.5k to $10k operation that may not have worked, or putting her down. She was in pain, so we decided to have her put down. We got back to the vet just in time as she was in a significant amount of pain and was almost gone, so we at least got to say goodbye.

Ranga, you were a beautiful cat. A supremely moody bitch when you wanted to be, but lovely, friendly and affectionate as well. We will miss you :(
 
^ I have gone through that so many times and can empathise with you a thousand times over and still I don't know what to say. :(
 
CB I am really sorry to hear that, it always sucks when you lose a pet. I think you guys made the right choice having her put down though because her quality of life probably wouldn't have been the same after the operation. It is strange how close you can feel to an animal and I can imagine how terrible you must feel at the moment. :( I can't imagine how I would feel if one of my dogs died.

Last year on christmas of all days my old cat got hit by a car and was killed, I was lucky as I wasn't very attached to the cat but it ruined the day for my mum and sister. Still, burying its corpse in the backyard was not a fun christmas day task.
 
Family stuff :(

Things just seem to go from bad to worse.

Also really really missing my mum who is overseas... I could do with a shoulder to cry/sob on :(:(

*sigh*
 
Pixie wants to sleep. Shutting out the world and the chaos inside my head right now would be great. Sleep would be really great right now... please..?

I can't stop thinking. I'm in a place of weird limbo with my SO (who uses BL, and in fact got me started in it, so i'm completely aware that he might see this, but I don't really care right now). We need to talk, I just want to talk to him, but neither of us have the time to even see each other. When one of us isn't working, the other one is, plus he has a big exam on friday, so I don't want to be a burden to him.

I had a breakdown of sorts yesterday, which had well-and-truly carried on into today. I addressed some things with him that I usually keep to myself when i'm in breakdown mode.. but I was drunk, so I brought them up. We left it on a "it's too late at night to talk about this" note, so now i'm left with my thoughts, my over-analysing ways, and what also seems to be a quarter-life meltdown. I can't stop thinking about what he might be thinking, and it's driving me mad. I don't want a big issue to come out of this, and I sure as hell don't want to lose him :( We still have so much to do and see together, I love him so much. I really hope he understands that my frame of mind is fucked right now, i'm not emotionally stable, and he can help me through this. I really need his support and reassurance when i'm like this.

This bites. I have to live with these thoughts until we get the chance to talk. Hopefully it won't be too late. Please, can I sleep now ... I just want to shut it all out.

:(
 
^ hugs.

I feel like I'm living a somnambulists life without the actual real to life sleeping part lately.
 
One of my two cats got hit by a car last night.

Oh man i am so sorry to hear! It is purely heartbreaking losing a pet, as they are our furbabies. I hope you're doing ok <3

I am frowning because i have a stupid cold i caught off the new girl at work. I feel lousy and its been an over all shit week. Ugh, ill be glad when xmas has come and gone to be honest.
 
I am so goddamn sick of being poor. I just want to work, I don't care what the job is. No-one is hiring at the moment though! With the hours I am getting I can only survive and not actually live life; it's so bloody frustrating.

Also, pretty into this great chick, and she's told me that she wants a relationship... she's only been out of LTR for a couple of weeks though... not sure if it's really me or just a rebound thing. I know in my head the best thing to do is to wait a while and make sure she's in the right place to make that call, but... it'd be so nice to have that right now :(
 
Still having hang-ups about the boyfriend and the talk we needed to have, but never had. I have so much fun with him that I don't want to ruin good times by bringing up difficult subjects about "the other woman". He apparently hasn't seen her in several months, which is good, but she's still lingering... I hate when she posts all over his facebook, it's a reminder they're still in contact. Hmmm. I don't know if i'm being too uptight about it.

It makes me cranky that he pumps up 'communication' between us being such a big deal, but he's refusing to talk about this. So I have no idea how he feels about anything ... about her... about me... about us... Guess i'll just continue to stew on the matter until it makes me explode in a self-lothing, self-destructive rage of fear again... :( Gahhhh. Why can't everything just be peachy..?
 
Ants. Everywhere.

Ant Rid. I'm sure you've heard of it and I can assure you it works. Little worker ants take the poison back to the queen 'cause it's slow acting and BAM, end of colony.

The drops are good, just put a few drops wherever you see high traffic.

Coles, Woolworths, whatever you crazy melbournites have, they'll have it.

http://www.antrid.com.au/
 
Still having hang-ups about the boyfriend and the talk we needed to have, but never had. I have so much fun with him that I don't want to ruin good times by bringing up difficult subjects about "the other woman". He apparently hasn't seen her in several months, which is good, but she's still lingering... I hate when she posts all over his facebook, it's a reminder they're still in contact. Hmmm. I don't know if i'm being too uptight about it.

It makes me cranky that he pumps up 'communication' between us being such a big deal, but he's refusing to talk about this. So I have no idea how he feels about anything ... about her... about me... about us... Guess i'll just continue to stew on the matter until it makes me explode in a self-lothing, self-destructive rage of fear again... :( Gahhhh. Why can't everything just be peachy..?

My opinion is that if something is bothering you, bloody well say something about it.

You can chalk it up to being about good communication, but at the end of the day if I'm worrying about something it puts an icky feeling in my stomach that just sits there. Literally as soon as I say something about it that feeling goes away.

Of course then you have to deal with the consequences of the discussion you've forced, but at least you know what you're dealing with, and the issue often seems much smaller than what you've been worrying about, as opposed to sitting not knowing for days/weeks/months with that feeling in your gut.

If I was with someone who refused to discuss something that was bothering me I'd be taking some time to consider whether (a)it's really a non-issue that I've unreasonably obsessed about and need to just drop or (b)it is an understandable thing to be concerned about and he's not invested enough in my feelings to get why I'm upset. If (b) - is he worth it?
 
Ants. Everywhere.

I know how you’re feeling there; I hate those motherfuckers after I was virtually taken over by them at this old house I used to have.

As suggested above, try Ant Rid. Don't just stop there though get all of the ant killing/destroying products on the market. Mix them together or try them in isolation. Evidently the ants build immunity to these chemicals and just soldier on through them.

My other suggestion is to follow the bastards back and try and find their lair. There is very likely something in or just outside of your place that is acting as the catalyst for the development on the ant metropolis.

It isn’t something obvious like a broken bottle of cordial, sugar lollies or anything as equally sweet.

When my ant problem was finally solved it was uncovered that the cause was a plant just outside the back door that had been suffering really badly from Scale Insect. The Scale kind of acts like a leach in that it attaches to the branches and the leaves of the plant in order to suck out all of its goodies. The by product of this process is that the plant or the scale (can’t remember which one) secretes a sugary syrup that ants are just addicted to.

When we cured the plant of scale, we zapped the remaining ants with pesticide and there was never an ant in the place ever again.

Once again, I fucking hate ANTS!
 
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