Tryptamines for everyday

[Middleway]

The obbsessive end of OCD... I mean that I constantly runinate and worry to an obsessive life ruining level. I have done this since I was a very young child.

In a way, the rumination is the compuslion..searching are researching for answers to questions that are unanswerable or irrilivent.

When I take acid or shrooms, its like my whole brain relaxs.

I am heading to a specialist in a month. At least now I can tell him what is really the problem rather that what I am obsessing about.
To tell you the truth, I think its doomed from the beginning.
I won't take ssri's or neuroleptics, they always hate having anything they say challenged.
I really feel that theropy with tryptamines could help me hugely...but how can you possibally get that?

 

[zn13bt]

"I have the obbsessional end of OCD. OCD without overt compulsions."

What does this mean?

I have purely obsessional OCD too. It means just what he said, OCD without the compulsions. Compulsions are the repetitive physical rituals that OCD sufferers engage in, like having to wash your hands 15 times a day, to relieve their obsessions. Obsessions are bizarre beliefs or thought loops that constantly intrude on your thought processes and cause you a lot of stress. I have a lot of repetitive actions that I do all day long, like bouncing my legs or tapping my fingers on random objects, but they aren't linked in my mind to the obsessions I get, so that's what makes my OCD the purely obsessional type (or "pure-o" for short )

Someone else earlier said everybody has OCD, but that's not really true. Sure, everyone has little rituals they engage in, but for most people they don't feel an overwhelming need to do them, or think that something terrible's going to happen if they don't do them. People with OCD do think these things, and worry about them so much to the point where it disrupts their lives. That's the difference.

 

[zn13bt]

The obbsessive end of OCD... I mean that I constantly runinate and worry to an obsessive life ruining level. I have done this since I was a very young child.

In a way, the rumination is the compuslion..searching are researching for answers to questions that are unanswerable or irrilivent.

When I take acid or shrooms, its like my whole brain relaxs.

I am heading to a specialist in a month. At least now I can tell him what is really the problem rather that what I am obsessing about.
To tell you the truth, I think its doomed from the beginning.
I won't take ssri's or neuroleptics, they always hate having anything they say challenged.
I really feel that theropy with tryptamines could help me hugely...but how can you possibally get that?

Good luck with your doctor visit. I know when I was diagnosed it was a huge relief for me, because I finally had an answer for why I was thinking all of these insane thoughts all day long. If you don't want to try antidepressants, you might want to look into doing cognitive-behavioral therapy, or mindfulness meditation. They're both techniques for distancing yourself from your own thoughts and looking at them without letting them upset you. I know it's helped me a lot to remind myself everytime an obsession starts popping up that it's just my OCD again. :D

It's true you won't find a therapist that will give you tryptamines, but you could always take those on your own time, right?

 

[Lord]

It's not at all a super-trip. why is everyone focusing on that? more of a threshold psychedelic high.
Something like 10-20ug of LSD
It's not a one-day thing though, it's a 1-4 week thing at a good dose.

 

[chaosbydesign]

It's not at all a super-trip. why is everyone focusing on that? more of a threshold psychedelic high.
Something like 10-20ug of LSD
It's not a one-day thing though, it's a 1-4 week thing at a good dose.

I took 5-HTP for a couple of weeks once which caused me to be in a constant strange, manic mood. Is that what you mean?

 

[Lord]

I took 5-HTP for a couple of weeks once which caused me to be in a constant strange, manic mood. Is that what you mean?

No I mean insane shit, lights looking so cool, enlarged perception of objects and penis, time dilation, this direct space-transcending connection between me and objects, my skin and nerves are wrapped around everything so to speak. U can get the XTC ribbon of coloured light thing too.

 

[Depressicaa]

No I mean insane shit ... enlarged perception of objects and penis

 

[wetwolves]

I had an ausome 5htp trip/experience when I took like 30 of em(Do not do this at home kids) Felt like a combination of mushroom, cid, and mdma. Lasted for about 3 hours.Ended up throwing up like crazy though which wasnt fun. Still a great experience.

 

[skillet]

^^ lol! I wonder if you gave it to someone else, would they also perceive your penis as being larger?

It would be interesting to hear if low doses, taken fairly often, are effective. There is some stuff about low dose salvia having antdepressant effects too. I've thought about taking psychedelics daily, building up a tolerance which should downregulate the 5-HT2A receptor, having some effects in common I guess to atypical antipsychotics.

 

[wetwolves]

ya low doese 5htp is defitly an excellent anti depressant. The higher you go the better it gets, for me at least, but u have to space ur doses out right so that u dont throw up from taking to much at one time. Also it makes u shit like crazy.Im talking straight brown water.

 

[Solipsis]

I am getting therapy and at this point everything is also pointing to the obsessional component of OCD. Let me remind the people that think we all have it to some degree that the D stands for disorder and there is only a disorder to speak of if you are impeded in your functioning because of it.

Really it's an interesting idea and I want to read more about evidence pointing towards monthly or so tripping helping with this, will be watching this thread carefully.