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trying to stay on the wagon...

omg, no that is not the right link. how that ended up there is beyond me as i only copied the link from the address bar. oh well, i'll edit with the correct link after i dig it up again lol.

and ty herbavore for the kind words. i don't know about knitting but i do play the guitar a little. i have looked at it quite a bit the last few days but haven't musterd the energy to play but i plan too. i understand the logic and will def give that a try. music is another thing saving my soul right now. i encourage everyone to listen to what you like but bob dylan, the beatles, pink floyd are all being very good to me right now.
 
The Soma that you have can be used for the muscle cramps and achiness, as well as insomnia. If you have only 1 mg Xanax, I'd split it in 2 and keep them for when you really need them. Avoid alcohol. Naltrexone, either orally everyday, or via long-lasting injection (Vivitrol) every month could also help in the long term. If the symptoms and cravings are just too bad for too long consider buprenorphine (Suboxone, Subutex) maintainence therapy. This would be long term, too.
 
thanks Alex for your reply. some good shit in there you hit things right on the head.

just a little update.... still opiate free and feel like i'm over the hill (which i never thought would happen). i have a clear head and feel like myself for the first time in god knows how long which is a good feeling. i'm not depressed in the slightest. if anything i wanna be around family and friends ALOT. i just wanna give it another week or so before i get crazy with the socializing. only problem i'm having is with the restlessness and insomnia. it's gotten 75% better but i still have to medicate myself to sleep which consists of a soma and i chunk of xanax so Alex you hit it right on the head.

i feel great otherwise! sober is pretty nice i must say... once i am able to relax at night w/o the drugs i'll be fantastic. the sensations shooting down my legs and body are keeping me awake, the bicycle type deal or whatever. showers help alot too and walking around but when you are tired and just wanna recharge you cant'.

but that's ok, i can cope, every day is better and i couldn't have done it without you all. i wanted to make sure i posted this because there ALOT and I MEAN ALOT of threads here there and everywhere about how horrible w/d's are and it was too intimidating for a while so i just kept on the oxy. just know ppl that YOU CAN DO IT and you will feel alot better after you do. just a little encouragement for whoever lol.
 
update:

i'm right about 2 weeks off the oxy and still dealing with a couple things. might help to bitch about it some or get some info from you very smart and knowlegable folks.

i keep getting these sneezing fits. i sneeze like 100x a day, no shit. i'm trying to manage that and slight runny nose with cold/antihistamine pills but i don't like taking them because they make me more twitchy. which is the BIGGER problem. i can handle the sneezing its the torture of trying to lay down and sleep at night without the spasms and anxiousness. for now i have to take a soma and piece of xanny still. it knocks me the fuck out and doesn't leave me groggy at all... it's just that i don't like it. i know i have to take it though for now to get any kind of normalcy and sleep. i would rather take nothing.

how much longer do you think until i can drop those and be normal again or have i just turned into a drug craving monster from my oxy abuse?
 
I get the sneezing a lot along with yawning. I'm sneezing now actually. They're like bursts of 4 or 5. It's just individualistic withdrawal symptoms. I usually just tough it out. :/
 
Sleezy, I want you to know I, along with all of us here on Bluelight wish you the best of luck. Oxy addiction is no joke. I've been through it myself, starting with Hydro's, gradually going up and eventually doing around 90mg to 150mg of Oxycodone a day for a year straight. My mother gave them to me, she had a prescription and never used them cause she also had Vicodin and she felt that helped her pain more. She enabled me, and when she passed away I was left with a 150mg a day Oxy habit with no connections or anything to help my withdrawals, not even bud. I took my last 150mg 10 minutes after I heard she passed away, and knew the following weeks would be hell.

I never had an issue with sneezing. My biggest problem was the cold sweats and constant twitching, constant desires to get high. I couldn't sleep, I couldn't think. It was all about getting high, and I couldn't. The only thing that helped was soaking my feet in very hot water, it took away the cold sweats. I had to repeat this many, many times throughout the day.

And my desires never went away. I still crave them, but nowhere near as much as I use to. For the first 3 months I constantly thought about Oxycodone. I kept looking on my floor, all over, in furniture from my old apartment constantly hoping to find one that fell when I was moving or got stuck in my furniture when I was too high to realize. I ended up finding about 6 of them when I moved, one at a time, but I never got high enough to be satisfied.

The desire is going to be there for a while, it always will. You are never going to get rid of them because you'll never forget what that high is like, but I promise you, you will not be fixated on a fix forever. The desire will die down, your thoughts will wander on things outside of drugs, and you will feel better soon. Hang in there, and keep posting on here when you need help or start craving a fix. Be safe, dude. And take care of yourself!
 
i'm still hanging in there :). surprisingly enough i don't crave the oxy AT ALL. i think the 3 yr bender of taking AS MUCH as i wanted fullfilled my brains desires. i have more of a hunger to get back to my life. friends, family, women, etc. all the shit i let slip away because the oxy was making me happy, i could care less about the other shit.

luckily i picked back up with my friends pretty much where we left off, so that's good.

J.WALLACE: sorry about your mother bro. i don't know what i would do if i lost mine, that in itself would make me wanna get high. stay strong man, you don't need those things, they steal who you are.
 
keep going man. it will get better day by day, as a recovering opiate addict (i will classify myself as this for the rest of my life as taking even 1mg of any opiate will most likely send me down an addiction again. and sometimes i crave real bad although ive been clean for about 7 months now!!!) i can honestly say that quality of life gets better and better. get out more, start socializing but whatever you do DONT take any drug! i found myself attaching to other drugs very quickly even if they really messed me up. especially mdma and benzos. amphs are just as bad in my opinion and i currently rail a whole load of it but i "think" i have it under control when in reality i most certainly do not. in my honest opinion once hooked on any mind altering drug, if you decide to take another instead you're going to head down a dark dark road again.

whenever i crave opiates i tend to just go eat some chocolate (lol idk why?) but that seems to help me out a little bit. day by day step by step. :)

congratulations on your steps to a (hopefully) opiate free life! you can do it!
 
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still hanging in there. you all are right, quality of life does get better as time goes by. i think i might be a freak of nature in that i have no desire to take any opiates, i have 0 cravings and i'm back to my self 100% which is a pleasant surprise.... never thought i would get back fully after the abuse i put myself through. the human is extremely resilliant i'm learning. now if only i could cure my addiction to eating and sugary foods lol. ill take the food over the drugs most days. maybe ill play some more down the road.

thanks all you guys!!!
 
That's so wonderful to hear! :)

'Addiction' to crap foods can be a tough one, but now that you're doing well it might be a good time to tackle that one too.
 
Tsleezy said:
still hanging in there. you all are right, quality of life does get better as time goes by. i think i might be a freak of nature in that i have no desire to take any opiates, i have 0 cravings and i'm back to my self 100% which is a pleasant surprise.... never thought i would get back fully after the abuse i put myself through. the human is extremely resilliant i'm learning. now if only i could cure my addiction to eating and sugary foods lol. ill take the food over the drugs most days. maybe ill play some more down the road.

thanks all you guys!!!
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Watch out for that pink cloud. You've got to have a program in place to deal for the shitty times ahead, when your sobriety is really challenged. Are you using anything else, including alcohol?
 
Sounds like ur doing well OP :)
this makes me happy, keep @ it u sound to be right on track hey, Dont give up u have the strong mindset, cant offer up anything else than whats been posted.
 
Dave said:
That's so wonderful to hear! :)

'Addiction' to crap foods can be a tough one, but now that you're doing well it might be a good time to tackle that one too.
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yea it's too convenient to eat bs. i'll slowly work on this one for sure.

Missykins said:
Watch out for that pink cloud. You've got to have a program in place to deal for the shitty times ahead, when your sobriety is really challenged. Are you using anything else, including alcohol?
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i don't think this one applies to me honestly. my mind set is I am the only person who can help me, noone forces me to take drugs, i control that noone else. so i man the fuck up when i have to. and right now i feel too good being sober, the actually thought of getting fucked up makes me nausious. but yea, i def do drink socially, who doesn't.

S.M.F.G said:
Sounds like ur doing well OP :)
this makes me happy, keep @ it u sound to be right on track hey, Dont give up u have the strong mindset, cant offer up anything else than whats been posted.
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yea thanks, i'm pretty solid on this. its really a non-issue at this point, i'm on to bigger better things!!
 
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