I've recently decided to try and quit using opiates. I've been an addict for about 4 years now. I usually do Roxies but I'll pretty much do any opiate I can get my hands on. I spent about 2 years using the needle but got clean for a couple months when I met my current boyfriend and was dealing with some legal troubles. I eventually started using again but ditched the rigs. My boyfriend told me that if he ever found out that I shot up again, he would leave me, so now I just snort everything. We've been together for about 2 years now and have plans to get married but the other day he basically told me it was the opiates or him...I love him and really don't want to loose him but the withdrawals are the hardest thing I've ever had to go through. I planned on using this weekend to get clean so I could try and be over the sickest days and make it to class on monday. but I've slipped up and haven't made it one day yet. I'm about to graduate from college and I know there is no way I'm going to make it in the "real" world as an addict without my student loans. I don't know what to do...i feel completely hopeless against this drug. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. I just know that if I can make it through the flu-like days I can stay away from it. I never want to go through it ever again.
