Well I just wrote a hole goat thing about myself and my using and how long . But now I'm irritated that it got erased some how. Long story shot. I've experimenting with for for about 3 years from 21-24 taking a lil but more by 24. Nbut half way through my year of 24. I made realy good money for my age. And had a lot going for me. Staring popping a norco here and there not ever day. Got hooked and moved up to oxy20mg IR . Than Moved up to snorting thosr oxy when I found out that realy the only ingredient remains is oxycodone. Than taking oxy and hydro Together. 10mg oxy 10-20mg hydrocodone twice daily sound 07/17 than coming home and have a beer .5 mg of xanax sometimes. beer in and good time it's time for one mor 10mg snort butnotthan snorting another line of oxy and drinking are so beers and smoking some cigs. and bbqing. Good times. But eventually I have been waking up like shut every single day with diaries irritable and just happy my gf isn't living with me yet to see that part of me. All I needed to just start my day is by popping a couple mabe few pills And that's all I was thinking about all the time getting ready for work. Than always had worried Where am I gonna get money or who is on deck. Or if I could steal some from my family. Starting missing family events to score some pills. And that's when it realy hit me and I finally told My gf of a 1yr6mo (at that time) I have one secret from you and im not proud of and I know the only way I could quite is to tell somebody I love,trust, and knowing her she's is very religious to the "T" well almost. And that I know she loves me and will be there for me no matter what. Even though I brake her heart and she thinks I only like our relation ship when I'm high. You make me happy no matter what Nd I'm a happy you accepting my secret. The most to finally let out my secret and now you have to change. I tried a taper once a 2 months taper. I only made it down to 3 hydrocodone 10mg a day. And got stuck there. got laid off and took a while to get back on my feet and causing a lot of arguments with my blessing girlfriend. Got extra high in the mean time because I was depressed. By it found 3 jobs In 3 days. And scored a good job. Got to better offer in the next month one was $2 more an hour and 25 mins closer to home. Just scared to leave a good job and burn a bridge or take the one close to home for more cash. So job hopong mDr me broke. Somebody needs a place to sleep eat and call home. I decided enough was enough. I'm feeling guilty for wasting money on thes pills that I just need more and more to make it work. So I know a guy who sells some suboxone. Did a lot of research before hand. Decided to get four 8/2 strips to start. And first morning with withdrawals I took half 4/1mg and witchin an hour I felt so much better. Like normal.. I was shocked. And not even a craving for pills. Didn't cross my mind at all other than the fact that I can't remember the last time I didn't take a pill. So I'm 4 days off opiates. And I've tapers down from 4/1 mg of suboxone twice a day every 10-13 hours. To now a 1/4 strip for 9-10 hours than another 1/4 strip in the evening 1 hour before. I only have 3/4 of a strip left till I pick more up tomamrow. I know I will get through the day fine. And sleep know worries.
I'm basically using suboxone to get past the hardest part of opiate withdrawls so I don't miss work. The first 5 days. I'm gonna go 6-7 days just to be safe and taper to no suboxone by that day 6 or 7. Also what I think is so crazy is I have no craving for pills at all. Not once so ever. I've been to my parents hous 3 times since than and realized when I left there house, that pills didn't cross my mind at all while I was there. Seriously its a miricle so far. I've read horror stories about and that people are using subs for 1,2,3+ Years I just don't understand trad one addiction to another. So ya. 6-7 days I'll be a week clean off opiates and quite suboxone. I'm expecting to feel slight withdrawals ,but you gotta pay to play. Just thank the lord for creating humans that can create a drug/detox to help you get through them the bad withdrawal stagesget out of this awful life style
Btw I have been taking XANAX Bars. .5m in the morning that's usually the worst part of my day. And I carry a .5 mg with me if I go out just in case anxiety comes. Usually doesn't.. I'm also not trying to get hooked on xanax either. I just want to live life clean and smoke a lil weed and drink a lil beer. So by 6-7 Days i quit suboxone hoping I clear the hard partnof opiate withdrawal. I'm just expect slight accute withdrawals and if nothing, that's amazzing. Cold turkey sucks for up to 8 days like you have the worst flue. Tapering down takes a lot of will power, time, Money to keep up with your addiction. And if a friend or family is holding your stash to keep it from you that they remind you that there's only 2 doses left For so you can makes sure to re up in time.
I'm also hoping I dont create a dependence and get withdrawals from suboxone for 6-7 days worth tapering down every day to just a 1/4 a day.g Anyways message me if you've thought about the same thing. Ot want to talk. Wish me luck kickg this
