Trying REALLY hard to kick Butyr-Fentanyl_And a Warning

[The Shadow Self]

Hi Guys,

Never thought I'd be writing on this board, but I find myself in a tough spot that I got myself into.

I, foolishly, got myself addicted to B-F. For the last couple of months, I had ordered multiple grams and quickly
built a tolerance. I started taking small amounts ( a few milligrams ) and after a couple of months, I was dosing
about 5 mgs ever hour or hour and 1/2, just because I could. As I started to get more addicted, I start feeling shittier and shittier, and there was basically no euphoria anymore. What I ended up with is just taking it to avoid withdrawals which, at first, I'd start to feel after an hour or so because it's so short acting. It has been nothing but misery, and I decided to taper with what I have left. I have been tapering for about a month, and I have at least gotten to the point where I am stretching the doses out longer and longer, hoping that I can simply slowly reduce the amount of this nasty fucking chemical in my body. I just can't tell you how miserable it is, and the wd's are just horrible.

I was addicted to morphine about 20 years ago, and I can tell you this is every bit as bad, if not worse because it
is so short acting. The only good thing, like I said, is that I am up to about 4 to 5 hours between small doses before
I start to go into wd's, which again, are fucking insane. I feel so weak and hopeless, like this will never end. Also,
I am going through a divorce and have been depressed anyway, and I have an 8 year old daughter. To be honest,
while I do want off this shit for me, it's also for my daughter who I love more than anything. Ever.

Anyway, can someone please tell me that if I keep going, keep cutting back, I can get to the point where I don't go
into wd's? Can't sleep, sweaty, then cold, feel like shit, you know the drill. It sucks, and I wish I never made this mistake, but I have to make it right.

I guess I am just trying to reach out to ask the community for a word or two, and to tell anyone, DON"T get yourself
addicted to this fucking chemical. I knew what I was doing, and I knowingly fucked up. Now, I just want my life back. I can't go CT because I work for a living as a therapist and I am trying my ass off to make it through the days, but it is so hard and days hours seem like days. This has been one of the worst things I've ever done,
and like I said...take it from me. DON'T get involved in these Fent analogs...it is just. not. worth it.

Anyway, anyone with any experience with getting off these fents that can tell me something good? That I CAN taper? That at some point, I WILL reduce the amount of B-F in my body so that I can just have a day, a magic day, where I will be able to go for 10, 12, 14 hours (ultimately 24) where I don't have WD's?

Thanks for any feedback.

 

[Xorkoth]

I have not been addicted to B-F or fentanyl, but I have to kratom, heroin and poppy seed tea (not all 3 at once). I will say that if you keep responsibly tapering with an iron will and NEVER cheat, you will become less addicted, but at some point you have to jump off and you will feel some amount of withdrawals. But hopefully they will be a lot less intense. And the more time you can wait between doses, the better. Start trying to experience withdrawals for a few hours before you dose again, and dose the minimum you can to feel better, not feel high. That will make the taper the most successful. It will go a lot slower if you always dose as soon as you start withdrawing.

I am also going through a divorce partly from my opiate addiction, I feel for you man, it's rough to face.

 

[The Shadow Self]

Thanks. Yeah, I have been going about 2 hours of wd's before the next, tiny dose, then I feel better for a bit
I am definitely spreading them out, and I was doing one an hour, now, I can go about 4-6 hours before the next dose.
I am really not cheating, but it's just taking a while. I am hoping that I can get to 6,7,8 hours between, just so I can sleep
without redosing. I am taking a couple of valium a night just to get some sleep. Thanks again

 

[cj]

Tapering is never a bad thing that's for sure. The other positive is the short half life means short acute withdrawal phase. Maybe jump off on a Friday with plenty of Valium on hand to cushion the blow so to speak.

 

[al-laddin]

keep a journal...and push yourself a bit further every time...journaling will help build confidence and morale ...keep pushing and maybe switch to kratom and continue your taper from there..just a suggestion as Ive seen many people successfully jump off of kratom. Good luck

 

[neversickanymore]

Fent is a harsh detox but as short as they get.

Studies on urinary excretion revealed that almost all of the injected butyrfentanyl was excreted or metabolized within the first 3 h after injection, and only very low concentrations were still detectable after 3 h

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Butyrfentanyl#cite_note-Part_II-2

so in really just three days (four at the most) you should be at the end of the tunnel or feal better that day instead of worse and will likely feal pretty good. IMO you're accomplishing nothing buy waiting five hours in between doses except making yourself miserable. Given its short half life you will likely not get much sicker than you are at that time as you have no more opiate to lose, just feal worse from no sleep and what not. I would consider going and see a physician and tell them what happened and that you need medications to ease the withdrawal. Then I would accept the fact that your going to feal bad for three days, after which you will feal god and be free from physical dependence. Then get three free days and jump.

You can do this!!!!


medications for acute opiate detox

The medications I would explore the use of for detox would be:
>Clonidine< DOSED EVER FOUR HOURS..

one of either
>NEURONTIN< >HERE< >HERE<
OR >Lyrica<
OR >phenibut<

>A BENZO BUT JUST AT NIGHT<
>a nsaid<
>melatonin<
tylenol
Senokot S is a stool softener and laxative. If you do not want the laxative you can go for strait stool softenerDioctyl sodium sulfosuccinate.

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