trying for understanding

[little_vandal]

so... ive never contributed to this part of bluelight before - what they hey, here's something i wrote maybe a year or two ago now.


trying for understanding

they look to me with desperate eyes,
outcasts and introverts,
needing the attention,
needing the encouragement,
the hope that there is hope.
and i try to do two things at once,
but i slip, and i fail.
but to which one?
i cannot fail them,
so i fail myself.
and hold them up when they would fall.
and hope that its enough for someone to be ok,
even if that someone isnt me.
i look into their eyes,
and see the hunger for life,
and i try to give them what i cannot,
so i bleed from the heart,
because its more than i have in me to give.
then i wake,
to wonder why i dream these things,
and why time and time again i need to be the hero,
only this time i couldnt come to the rescue,
and take them from their fears,
left only to understand,
that they are me,
and i need the understanding,
or the thought someone is trying.
but no one ever does.
and i weep for the lost children of my dreams,
because sudden realisation,
reminds me i am alone,
and only i can help myself.

 

[RareForm]

it's amazing that you could write exactly what you were feeling, I absolutely loved this. and an apparent, you seem like an extraordinary person as well. thanks for sharing this.

keep posting.

~RF