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Truths About Loving the DrEamer

CARESS

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To Patrick - I'm sorry I couldn't be who you wanted me to be.
Loving the DrEamer
Don't listen too carefully-
I'll tell you truths you don't want to hear.
Don't watch too closely-
I'll do things you don't want to see.
Don't hold me so tightly-
I may feel the need to breathe.
Don't call to me loudly-
I may not hear you over the crowd.
Don't follow in my footsteps-
My journey is one of endless circles.
Don't put me on a pedestal-
I will fall and disappoint you.
Don't chase after me-
I may scare and run on to the next distraction.
Don't deny me my freedom-
I build my own prisons with ease.
Don't judge my actions-
I'm serving a sentence already.
Don't try to save me-
I may be happy to drown.
Don't try to wake me-
I love the drEam.
Don't ask me to choose-
You will lose me.
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Bluelighters,
Thanks for taking the time to read this.
Love,
Caress 3/18/00
 
That is absolutely beautiful, Caress. I totally relate to it. I imagine the way I relate to it is different than the way you do, but I am thinking I might give a copy of that to my parents. I am sure you have seen my drama queen posts that clutter up the board...Would you mind if I shared that with them??
Chin up, my girl!! There is someone who is going to know exactly what to do and how to treat you and he will make you very happy. I promise...How do I know?? Well, I just do....
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Have fun and be careful!
Meg
 
Meg,
Sweetie, I have read your posts. You are NOT a drama queen. My heart has hurt for you at times when I didn't know what to say. You are more than welcome to share this with anyone if you think it will help.
I am doing fine, really. My pain comes from knowing that I hurt someone else. Thank you for your concern.
I missed you on the Twilo trip. Let's hang out together SOON. Email me.
Love, Caress
 
Caress, that was truly beautiful. Keep on rolling on.
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~*~ PuCk ~*~
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caress, thank you. i loved and related to every word. you've been blessed - keep writing.
 
Meg, Puck, Mows,e_go,
You all are the BEST. Thanks for taking the time to read and thanks for the great feedback! Why was I afraid to post this weeks ago when it was fresh? Maybe it just wasn't time. You all make me feel comfortable expressing myself.
Caress
 
Aw Caress sweetie.... Chin Up. No matter what You have to be yourself. I just want you to know that I love you for who you are. Its the person inside that counts and no drug or any anything can change that I am serious when I say your my big sis infact I am so happy I have met you. You are in my thoughts daily. In a way just like meg I can relate to this by the actions of my parents. They put me on that pedestal where I knew I would fall. They keep trying to "save" me but from what I will never learn if I can't make my own mistakes. Their actions are just pushing me further and further away. For years I would tell them to just let me be myself and yet they still try to change me. They can't make me change I am who I am and so are you. Big Cyber XXX's and OOOO's- Squeaks
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So how many licks does it take to get to the center of a Tootsie Roll Tootsie Pop?..... The world may never know!
 
This was getting kinof low so I wanted to bump it up. You have been in my thoughts alot this week!
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So how many licks does it take to get to the center of a Tootsie Roll Tootsie Pop?..... The world may never know!
 
Squeaks,
Thanks, sweetie. You know you are in my thoughts. I'll email you.
Thank you to everyone for the feedback. Bluelighters are the best at supporting each other.
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If you doubt it, see Flower's post in Discussion on Human Kindness.
Big Hugs,
Caress
 
Hey Caress,
that was an awesome poem...it just has so many thoughts running through my head right now....i actually wen through the same thing...but i was on patricks side....i loved this girl so much..but she just changed and started doing different things while i was away at school....and recently she told me its over between us
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....so im just trying to move on....its not an easy thing but then i realize that maybe this is how she is supposed to be...maybe u just changed too...maybe u were meant to be like this....everyone changes in life...well i guess thats all im going to say.. PLUR
Tim
 
Again, thank you all for the feedback. You guys are the best!
Tim,
I am sorry that you were on the other end. I agree with your suggestion that I changed. I feel that in life, people go through many growth cycles. Sometimes in a relationship, these cycles aren't in sync. In my case, we wanted different things and couldn't agree or compromise. It simply wasn't meant to be. I felt very badly about hurting him, but how could we both grow in opposite directions, together? All my best to you, Tim. Thank you for sharing your experience. It helps to hear perspective from the other side.
Hugs,
Caress
 
Hey Caress,
Thanks for replying to my post....I totally know what you mean about moving apart....thats what happened to me and this girl....we were away from each other and we just moved apart from each other....right now we are just trying to work things out and be friends, but its not so easy just because she has feelings for other guys and things have happened with other guys....i know i have to move on but i know that i will always love her..
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I think that is absolutely true. i hurt someone very badly becasue i could not change and now i'm in the process of hurting someone else. i try to change but we are who we are. No one has the power to change your mind unless you let them. Be careful who you give that power to.
 
That was truely beautiful! also so perfectly describes me. although I wish to one day meet someone that I fall so deeply, head over heels for, that I am willing to change. But sometimes I wonder did I already meet him and did I already fuck him over???? enough babbeling i loved the poem!
 
Thanks you guys! I'm so glad you liked it!
Coley, I've often wondered if Mr. Right had already stepped into my life and I was too stupid to see. But, I can't believe that to be true or I'd never even date again! Think about it. You're probably a better person than you're giving yourself credit for. Stop beating yourself up. I will if you will.
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Caress
 
I was in love with a dreamer. Gave him all he wanted, all the space, but being a dreamer
myself we destroyed each other. Your amazing poem touced that place in my heart where he lies. Thank YOU!!!!
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