trouble on my mind.

[blotterboy]

My life is going down hill. I just lost my job, my relatioship is struggling, i owe money for drugs i probably cant pay back, money is going backwards.
Im not sure if i care anymore though. In the last month my drug use has increased dramatically. Taking any oppertunity to get fucked up. Because i have a bunch of pills at the moment ive just been dropping left right and center. Like waking up and having one just cause.
And now i dont have a job i smoke weed all day. Rather then after work and weekends.
I dont know what to do with myself. Coming home drunk at 2 am this morning, fiance screaming and in tears,
I layed in bed and thought i dont know if this is worth it anymore.
And when i woke up it was still in my head.
Today may just be my last ride.

 

[xxsicknessxx]

when things are bad its time to sober up and recharge and get back to normal I think. If things are bad then think how much better they can get instead of how much worse. Just understand that drugs can only make things get worse, look what there doing right now, so try something different try not doing them...

If you have no money and no job thats the perfect excuse to quit

 

[*samsonite*]

It sounds like u feel lost and hopeless but I promise you brighter days are ahead if you can stir up the energy and courage to have even just ONE productive day. You need to get out of bed. If it takes smoking a bowl to do that then do what you need to do, but if possible, get off the pills. Try to spend one day doing something productive and something positive for your relationship. You are at the bottom and can only go up. Don't think longterm... just give it what you've got one day at a time

 

[webbykevin]

It's times like these that make you strong, you will look back on this moment in good times to come and remember how lucky you are and how you have seen the bottom of the pit and scrambled up the sides.

Sounds like hell right now but trust me, hang in there and get it together (you know what you have to do) and you can ride the wave that follows this trough for the next few years.

Good luck mate !

She'll be right !

 

[sconnie420]

Blotter

Keep ur head up mate. They may not seem like it now but things will get better..hope things work out well for you..(((Hugs))..pm me if u need 2 rant/ vent 2 some1.